Loving Ms. C

Chapter 18

I woke up around 9 in the morning and made Erica some to eat before i headed out. Erica could sleep all day if you let her & C hit me telling me she was up and to use my key if she fell asleep on me.

I grabbed my stuff & headed over there. Maybe they were right. Maybe i do have commitment issues and C really didn't do anything. At some point the conversation would've came up ; i don't know why i acted like it wouldn't.

I got to her house and let myself in. She was laying in the middle of her bed. I kissed her shoulder..

Me: hey my love

C: hey stranger

Me: what you been up to ?

C: nothing work , papers , phone calls , emails

Me: mhm guess same but not same. i'm sorry i blew up on you and also disappeared on you. it was some i had to handle.

C: hmm i guess

Me: my friends think im self destructive when it comes to relationships.

C: yeah i see what they mean but question

Me: wessup

C: what's that on yo damn neck like wtf i seen you the other day and we didn't have sex , you don't even like marks so wessup

Me: that's part of what i went and had to handle its a lot to explain...

C: we got time because how tf you fw me but letting bitches do shit like this to you. thought we had an understanding. It took one argument and you already fucking someone else

Me: no stop it's not like that fr. C listen

C: LISTEN ? TO WHAT BULLSHIT BC THE SECOND YOU SAY SOME STUPID IMMA DEADASS CUT YOU TF UP.

Me: it's not stupid damn , i was talking to erica and she got mad over the argument me & you had then started to tell me ppl was right that i have commitment issues and asked did i have feelings for her. I said no bc to me i don't think so , so Dex was like we do everything relationship wise but have sex which is probably why I have sex with ppl no strings bc of Erica. We both thought it was crazy because since college we always been close. She like my best friend. Since we both was single , we just enjoyed eachother time and was eachother person. Plus at the time me and my family kinda wasn't on good terms so she really became family. We take trips together, tell eachother everything, I don't think i've slept next to anyone else fr but her, She always been my voice of reason. then the 3some came up and everything kinda came full circle...

C: okay make sense but the marks , still not explained come tf on now i'm not playing with you

Me: i'm getting there , dex felt it was weird i couldn't bring myself to have a 3some with you guys , when i've had many. So dex suggested we should open pandora box and figure out. So we did and didn't know how to tell you that. while doing the do things went a little to far and that's why it's marks.

C: so you fucked erica ?? you could've just told me. you don't even let me put marks on you. what did it accomplish tho ? i'm not understanding.

Me: it accomplished nothing. we still the same , nothing feel differently to me ; same for her.

C: okay so what ? i'm in your backup plan ? i'm the person who suppose to be cool with my bitch sneaking off and hiding what she got going on. Yes we not together but we fw eachother. communication i be cool wit everything. You young , you think im trying to make you commit to me.

Me: well idk how to tell someone stuff like that. i barely know to to explain it to myself.

C: well idc these marks unacceptable. i don't even play like that now Ace.

Me: okay next time i'll know.

C: NEXT TIME ? TF NO PLAY WITH THEM YOUNG WOMEN BUT YOU NOT ABOUT TO PLAY WITH ME.

Me: stop trippin, it's not like that fr. i like you , other than erica ; you are the only other person i'll cuddle with and all.

C: WOW ! i feel special.

Me: baby come here...

I pulled her to the end of the bed , and started kissing on her. She was soft for kisses. She kept telling me to stop but she wasn't gonna keep being mad at me. I understood where she was coming from and was tired between dex and her... i was just tired of hearing about it.