Forbidden Love and Lust

Chapter 6.

Hotch's Pov:
Emily texted me a few minutes ago that she is on her way. I get changed and put on a pair of grey sweatpants and a army green color t-shirt. I started a nice warm bubble bath, I put candles around the tub and on the counters. Since the team knows and we only have to keep it a secret from Strauss now it feels a little less stressful. Tonight I wanted to ask her to officially be my girlfriend. I turned on a soft, love playlist with songs filled all about love that I had listened to before while thinking about her. I turned the lights out in the bathroom so that only the candles light up the room. I got two wine glasses and a bottle of wine and sat it on the living room table and that's when I hear her pull into the driveway. I open the door and see her gorgeous smile. "Hi beautiful." I smile at her and see her smile and blush when I call her that. It warms my heart. "Hi handsome." She walks in and takes off her coat, I gently take it from her and hang it on the rack. She looks me up and down and bites her lip. I smirk at her and do the same for her. She's wearing a light blue V-neck t-shirt and some black leggings. I can't help but look her up and down but I smile and pull her in for a kiss. "Would you like some wine?" I ask and gesture to the table. "Yes please" I pour both of us a glass, I hand it to her and take her hand. "I have something to show you."

Emily's Pov:
He has some thing he wants to show me so he takes my hand and I smile. "What is it?" I ask and he shakes his head. "You'll see" That's all he gives me, so I follow him to the bathroom and he opens the door. "Oh my god.. Aaron.. it's beautiful.." There are candles everywhere, seems kind of dangerous but romantic. A bubble bath and some cute cheesy music. I tear up. He looks into my eyes. "Not as beautiful as you" I look back into his eyes. "This is the cutest thing anyone has ever done for me.." He hands me a folded up and paper and I give him a weird look but with a smile and I begin to open it. "No, heh, you get in the bath, and then you read it, I'll be out here, you have your phone, if you want me to join you after you finish reading then send me a text, if not I'll wait for you to get out. Have a nice bath beautiful" He kisses my forehead and closes the door. I strip out of my clothes and dip into the bath. I let my body get use to the hot water and enjoy the heat for a few minutes before opening the note. It reads:

Dear my beautiful love, Emily,
   You're one of the best things that have ever happened to me and I want to tell you how much I appreciate you and everything you do. You're so strong and brave. So beautiful and talented. From the moment I met you. From the very first handshake. I knew that I wanted you in my life. Back then I didn't know that this is how I needed you but I understand now. You complete me. You make me so incredibly happy and you have been here for me through everything. After Haley, I didn't know if I'd ever be able to love again. Or even date, I never thought that anyone would be ok enough for Jack and I didn't think he'd except anyone that way every again. But with how much you've been here since she passed he has clung to you and it makes me so very happy. I'm not asking you to be his mom or take Haley's place, I'm not even asking you to marry me obviously yet.. but I am asking for you to give me a chance, a chance to love you and a chance to show you that I can be an amazing boyfriend/ partner for you. So please Em, will you be my girlfriend officially?
~ Love, Aaron. <3

I'm in tears, I don't know what to think or what to say but I know I want him in here right now with me. I get out my phone from the floor and sent him a text.

Text:
Me: I read it... I'd like for you to come in here please, with no clothes ;)

A few moments later Hotch opens the door, fully naked and I bite my lip as I see him. But he must see the tears in my eyes because he comes over, leans down, wipes my tears away, and kisses me. "Hey.. did I upset you?" I look at him and smile. "No not at all.. I want you in here with me." He gets in behind me and rubs my back softly and kisses my neck. "Hey baby girl, how do you feel?" He asks softly while caressing my body gently. "I'm not sure.. scared I guess.." I lean back against him and lay my head on his chest. He lets out a soft sigh, not one of anger but of agreement. "That's understandable my love.. but I'm here for you, if you want to take some time and think about it you can, I won't stop you or be mad at you.." He tells me quietly. "I know you won't.. but that's the thing I've waited so long just for this why would I want to wait any longer. I just have to know that if I'm in this, you are too.." He plays with my hair. "Em I am. I just don't want to loose you too." He says in almost a cold voice. "I'm sorry Aaron. But maybe it is best if we take some time apart. Focus on work. And think about what we're doing. I can't fall even more in love with you just to loose you." He has tears in his eyes as he gets up and grabs a towel. "Emily. I will wait for you." He says before exiting the bathroom.

I get up and dry myself off, I put my clothes on and turn on the light. I blow out all of the candles leaving a burning/ amazing smell throughout the bathroom. I put everything away and drain the bath water. I exit the bathroom and see him in his bed. He's not happy at all. Neither am I, who can blame him. I just want to go kiss him and make him feel all better and be the constant in his life. I know that this is hard for the both of us because we've wanted this for so long but we've also both lost people who we were very close to just because of who we are.. I let a tear fall from my face and I sniffle, he turns around. He sees how upset I am and walks up to me. "Hey.. we're not over not even close. Just wait for me ok.. someday we'll both be ready to risk whatever this is." He wipes my tears and I see a tear fall from his face. "I love you." I whisper quietly through tears. He stares at me for a moment. I can't tell weather he's upset, mad, scared, or happy.

Sorry to leave you guys In suspense, what's going on in Hotch's head? What do you guys think. I'm sorry for taking the chapter in this direction but it'll all be worth it, I hope you like the fluff at the beginning and I hope to make you guys happy with the next chapter. Ive got work tonight so it may not be out till tomorrow. Love you all ♥️