The Test (August Alsina)

Life Support

Mia

I've fucked up . Someone who I wasn't supposed to touch became my strongest desire. It's been a month since I've last seen or talked to August. I moved to Marietta and just been doing my own thing, really. like I have been just not with August. This sucks. I moved out because I just couldn't take it anymore. The awkward silence ever since I told him that I was pregnant and these thoughts that are running a marathon through my mind. I was going to move out anyway because I felt that he needed his space and so did I. I'm having a baby and this baby could possibly be raised without a father. This wasn't suppose to be happening. I was trying to break the cycle. I strongly believe that at least 80% of a person's struggle comes from their foundation. If I could get myself straight and the father of my child could get himself together then we could possibly be straight. I love August and I know that he loves me I'm not sure if he is in love with me but I'm sure that he loves me. Even if we aren't together I want us to raise this child together. Wait, what am I saying? I don't want any other woman in August's life. I know what I said before but I am still Alive. He will have to do that when I am 18 feet under ...yes 18. I want to show my child that love does exist in this fucked up world. So that their childhood wouldn't be as damaging as August and I . Maybe that is what this has came down to. Maybe he is just as scared as I am. We both are young. We come from two different worlds yet we have came to the same difference. As I sit here and look at the pictures for the development of my latest project I think it's time that I be a big girl , put my granny panties on and go see August tonight. I see that he has a performance tonight and I will be there.

I am no longer a loner. I am reunited with my childhood friends Zuri;my Z-bear, and My bae, Danaye. I don't really get close to people especially females because they are evil ah*. But I love these two and I am glad they are back in my life. It feels refreshing to be around these two but my heart aches for my bestfriend and my soulmate. No matter how stupid and stubborn he has been acting. I've decided to go to Lennox and find me something to where. I wanted to be sexxii , drive him crazy a little bit, but very classy at the same time.

Danaye picked out a royal blue blazer and some leather shorts. Zuri picked out sheer lingerie cami, It was hawt and not too revealing. I didn't need August trying to snatch me up and whoop me. I wouldn't mine but It wouldn't be the one I would have enjoyed. I bought some gold jewelry and these black and gold pumps. They were definitely considered shoe porn but I wasn't going to last more than 2 hours in those things i just knew it. I am setting myself up for the kill.

Zuri: sexxii mama, time to get your man

Mia; ......

Danaye; If you don't stop acting like a shy school girl, you are beautiful.

Mia: so are you guys, I love you guys but...

Zuri: if you don't get yo ass.... I taught you better than that

Mia; yes mama

Danaye: you got this, bae

Mia: just like you got him

Danaye: Who?

Mia: Rashad Jennings

Danaye: Who the hell is Rashad?

Mia: look straight ahead

Danaye: ooo he is fine, but

Mia: you got this , bae mocking her

Danaye: how do you know him?

Mia: asks him if he needs a tight end laughs

Zuri: and he is undressing you with his eyes