The Test (August Alsina)

Lecture

The Next Day

Catalina: How is she?

August: She's alright. She sleeps alot. He decided not to mention her episodes

Catalina: Is she experiencing any pain, well probably so since she sleeps alot, give her these this should help her with the pain. I prescribe these to my patients with these conditions.

phone rings

Catalina: and that is my cue. take care of her August

August: of course

climbing up the stairs with a tray of fruit and water so she can take the pills.

Well, Good Morning

Mia: hi ...

August: how are you feeling?

Mia: my head is still throbbing and my foot, OMG I got gangrene!?!

August: that's quite a gash you have and that's what I wanted to talk to you about. You need to go to the hospital, ma.

Mia: No, I'll be fine..

August: you're fine with hopping to the bathroom

Mia: yep ...and about that where is your guestroom. I'm sure I'm invading your space.

August: you aren't ma. not at all

Mia: Why are you so nice to me ? Am I one of your save a hoe projects because i'm not trying to be saved.

August: I'm sure you aren't a hoe, and i'm here to help.

Mia: I made a few hoe decisions but I haven't had sex in 2 years and the time I did. It was terrible. I mean I went to take a shower while he jacked off to some flick on his phone ...oops tmi. sorry

August: you're good ma- Mia. You're opening up, it's a good thing.

Ma: uh yeah I guess but why do you want to help me? I don't think you can. I want to help myself but I suck at that so that is why I deserve to die.

August; you should really stop talking like that . Let's get you to the hospital.

She went in for emergency surgery where they re broke her foot so it could heal properly and put it in a cast.

He learned that she has tried to commit suicide more than 3 times and that's probably why she didn't want to go to the hospital.

August then took her home placed her in his bed which started to become their bed.

Mia: Is there a reason you like cuddling with me?

August: I noticed you sleep better when I hold you and I happen to actually sleep and not just lie here so this is helpful for the both of us.

Mia; Why? and you could have move me to the guestroom I don't want to come between you and your lady friends.

August: I don't have any and I wouldn't invite them here anyway

Mia: I'm no different than they are

August: stop Dammit !You're a lot different than they are and i'm going to show you

Mia: August, I want to help myself. I don't want your money, diamond rings, shopping sprees., I want to be able to provide for myself.

August: Well what are your dreams? goals? your ambitions?

Mia: I want to see the world. I want to see what it has to offer. I want to feel what love feels like . I'm not talking about a relationship tho. she was I want to have a successful life

August: so you didn't really want to die ...

Mia: If I keep getting disappointed, yeah I do

August: after all those attempts on your life and you are still here..there is a reason you are still here.

Mia: They told you ?

August: yes, and the first thing we need to do is learning how to channel your anger. What is the root

Mia; nigga, I just told you the root

August: we are going to go to the root and don't ever call your man a nigga.

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Mia
I have no idea what's going on. Like my mind is in a whirl wind and who is he? he came in my life with a cape. Did he just say that he was my man? I never had a man, a couple of little boys but not a relationship. Just a couple of situationships. I don't know what I am doing, I feel more confused than ever, more problems than ever and he swear that he is here to release my stresses. I know you're reading this like this bitch is so depressing but this is my life. All my life I had to fight, no color purple. I walked around with dark clouds over my head. like i'm tired of trying and failing. How do you think your life is going to be straight, like i went the right way but I took the left route ..apparently as I continue to go left . I should eventually make a right, right. All i wanted to do was live my life the right way but I kept getting knocked down and in this cold world it seems as doing wrong is right. I don't have the heart to do those type of things. I don't understand why I have to go through all this hell. Maybe August can help me, show me the better side of life but I don't eh I don't know I peeped him like He seemed reckless, immature, just a typical nigga. I'm like why me? why did I fall into his hands? August is a rich nigga from the deep bayous of nawlins or w.e thee fuck he is from.

You know what fuck everything I was talking about . I'm going to dust myself off and try again. I am going to do what I need to do to win. I'm going to either get rich or die trying. Obviously Life is not through with me yet because I keep failing at trying to end it.

August

Somewhere someone is probably yelling at me asking wtf are you doing? can't you see she is depressed? Can't save no one that doesn't want to be saved. I was once her well not exactly but I can feel her pain, plus she isn't all that bad she just needs to get out of the mud. And once she's out of the mud cleaned up she will be a functioning human being, well she will be alive and well.

I know this isn't going to be easy. She is going to stress me out, get on my nerves, get on her own damn nerves. But she is the girl I've been dreaming about. Ironically in my dreams I was the one hurt and she is the one helping me. I know this is strange, weird, crazy, etc but if you would just bare with me you will soon see what I see...