In Love with Impossible

Chapter 7- Face first

At this time of night I'm usually at home...sleeping or snacking,at this time of night I'm usually watching the usual movies, at this time of night I am usually researching some sort of disease, at this time of night I am usually examining all the faults in my face and figure but at this time of night I am most certainly never driving to a top celebs apartment with his spare key in my pocket! How on earth did my normal and uneventful life take such a sudden turn?!

I looked back into my life over the past few years. I saw my sister and I laughing, I saw the nerdy short haired girl that was me ,standing around waiting for her crush to pass by , I saw my best friend kissing my boyfriend, I saw my parents and I saw myself singing along to one of casters songs whilst thinking about Edward...all of this was completely normal for a girl like me..so how did my life go from perfectly,happily, normal to excitingly, heart breakingly, abnormal? Heart breakingly? I sigh inwardly it would have been easier if I'd remained indifferent to people like Ed and allowed my normal life to go on but at the same time I'd always wanted some spice in my life so that it wouldn't be normal to the point of boring and despite all my indifference I knew that I definetly cared about Edward a lot even though I can't be in love with him.

I pull up in front of the apartment complex and walk in,the same receptionist gives me a smug smile and walks up to me "you must be torn.." she says over sweetly "not really" I answer coolly , she probably assumed I was Ed's secret girlfriend and now was torn by the fact Ed was engaged well too bad for her that kind of drama was not for me. "Just so you know Edward isn't answering his door to anyone! The reporters have been camped out there for two hours and haven't got any response. Edward certainly won't open his door for you only his closest friends are allowed in and if you bang on his door I will have to call security," maybe Ed didn't want to see me. I considered him a close friend to me but maybe he thought otherwise. I thought of leaving but seen the receptionists smug smile I grew increasingly stubborn and angry..but I realised that she was probably just another fan, one thing my mother had taught me was that just because someone acts cruelly towards you doesn't mean you have to act the same , so I controlled myself and smiled gently "don't worry, I'm not going to pull a scene and I am glad to see Edward has such sweet fans. Excuse me but I'll just go up and if he doesn't let me in I'll come back down alright ?" I said she bit her lip and nodded.

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I was standing in front of apartment 281 with my hand raised to knock but never making contact with the wood...what if he really didn't let me in..? I shook my head and took my hand away. Going back after coming all this way would be pointless. I pull out the key I had and place it in the keyhole then uttering a silent prayer I open the door. The lights were all on and I could see the shadows of a bunch of people leaning on the furniture , I made loud footsteps so they would hear and prevent me from the ugly scene of hearing something I wasn't meant to...that was the kind of mood in the room.

  I shut the door noisily and walk in all five heads turn to me and their eyes widen in surprise, I sigh in relief the four others were Hal,Roger, Chris and Luke. I look around "um...hi..?" I say doubtfully "Jenny..? How did you get in?" Ed asks me " I found your spare key from this morning in my pocket and then I saw the ...uh engagement news and got...worried. I'm sorry I didn't mean to barge in ..if you want some privacy then I don't mind going home" I say quickly. Ed smiles gently but for some reason it seems sad. Hal comes over to me and drapes an arm around me "hey Jen! Didn't expect to see you again but I guess you kept in contact with Ed.....now Eddy you have a lot of explaining to do! Like how the heck did you wind up getting engaged to Kate ? And what was Jen doing here this morning?" Hal says half joking..half serious, while steering me towards the couch and forcibly seating me down. Ed frowns at the hand around me.then looks away quickly and sighs angrily "it really isn't a big deal guys! I realised I liked Kate in that way and rushed into the engagement...I didn't expect her to blab to the reporters so soon, that's the only reason I didn't tell you guys..I was going to throw a overnight party and break the news!" Edward grinned and his dimple did show but his eyes didn't laugh with him and his usual cheekiness didn't show up. He was smilingly happily but for some reason I felt confused, it felt as if he was smiling to protect someone ....no matter how sad he was protecting whoever it was made him happy and so he smiled.