I have a lot of um, acquaintances? I wouldn't say friends because I really dont like people much. Dont get me wrong, its super fun to vibe with a person who likes the same shit you like, but there's a limit to what you both can talk about. Hence I keep conversations super short.
Some say you need to "talk out your issues. it takes pressure off your chest" BULLSHIT. I have experienced it first hand what the outcome is when you talk. You are either labeled as; 1. a liar 2. an attention seeker 3. weak. Yeah, no thanks. Ever since I expressed twice and got that negative feedback, I've held my tongue with everything. its pretty sad when I think about it. but I tell myself its better than having your feelings hurt. and you know what is ironic? I have a best friend that is just beaming with positivity and light, but I'm sorry, I just dont have that energy anymore. your here anyway, so might as well come along for the ride. get yah snacks ready cause I'm boring......
