Have you ever been sexually harassed? Rape I mean lol I have, but we ain't going through that. No no no. Lets talk about blackmail.
I've been blackmailed so bad, I look back and I'm sick to my stomach about it. It's my own fault anyway. I should have been the bigger person and kept my pics, I should have said no, so much I should have done, but instead, like a jackass and let it go on. Why? because of the big stupid overrated word, love. All in the name of that stupid word, I allowed myself to be degraded and be used like a fucking rag. I was weak. I was naïve and stupid. Never understood the consequences of my actions until it was too late. When did I realize it was wrong? When I was called three times a week to fulfill his desires. That wasnt love, I said no, but you threatened to expose me, show your friends, show the school, show the world. I was chicken shit scared because I hate embarrassments, I hate being the center of negative attention, my pride got the better of me, so I gave in. It was wrong and I needed to put and end to it. Atleast I tried.
Two months, you turned me into your slave for, two months. Worse days of my life. when I'm not being assaulted, I'm doing your dirty deeds. It needed to stop, I needed to stop. I put my foot down and said I was done. I said my part, I let you hear my pain, hear how I felt, let you hear what kind of monster you became, then I waited. Seconds, minutes, hours, I waited. you never replied. I was petrified. I stared at my screen, jumping from media to media, waiting to see myself being disgraced.
It never came.
You replied with a simple I'm sorry. I didn't know if was a lie, or if it was real, but I took it. We talked, you proved your regret by clearing the evidences of me. I felt light, I could breathe again. I was free. but not for long...
A week later I heard it. Snickers, whispers, the eyes on me, the fingers pointing, You lied to me. You did show the world. How could i be so stupid. A monster like you wouldn't change over night. What do i do?
