PuppyHoney // Jookyun ✔️

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-Hello, how are you today? -A man asks me sitting on the armchair in my apartment.

-Weird-I answer honestly

-It means?

-I can't find my place for several days

-It's the effect of stopping your bedtime medications, but tell me about your dreams

-Since I don't take the drugs sometimes they come back, but they pass quickly and I keep sleeping

-You told the rest of this?

-To worry them even more? Come on, doc

-Somnifobia is not easy to heal and you need people close to Changkyun-he says, looking at me

-Everything is good, really, if I feel that it is bad, I will tell them and for sure Jooheon or Minhyuk

-Okay, and is there anything you want to tell me about today?

-Everything's its right

-Are you sure?

-Like nothing else-lies again

-So, there's nothing more for me today, right?-he says, getting up what I'm doing to -Remember that you can call me at any time and tell me about everything

-I know doc-I answer him and he leaves with a smile

I close the door behind him and sigh.  Another psychiatric session filled with lies.  Another lonely one, with no loved ones nearby.  No wonder, actually. Shownu went with Minhyuk and Kihyun to deal with the teddy bear producer we are working with.  Hyungwon went with Hoseok to his family and Jooheon is recording with Jackson from Got7 today.  Supposedly they are supposed to record them making friends.  Heon said he was really looking forward to it.  Speaking of my boyfriend this is what I just hear the typical sound on my phone on his call.

-Hello?

-How is the session?- He asks immediately

-Do you only call for that? -He laughs seeing that it is important to him -Nothing new, same answers to the same questions. Nothing gets worse, nothing gets better

-Baby, it takes time, not all at once-he says, and I smile at what he called me, knowing that Jackson and the camera may be next to him.

-I know that's why I give myself this time- I say

-It's okay, what are you gonna do now?

-Bit? -I ask aloud-Yeah, I think that's what I'll be doing

-Remember I want to be the first to hear it

-Honey always- I say

-Wolf I have to finish I love you and call me in my free time

-I love you too-I hang up-Pff what now?  Oh yes the food

I dial a well-known number when I hang up, deciding to go to the pub personally.  I wear shoes and my leather jacket.  I fix my hair quickly and, taking my wallet and apartment keys, I leave.  I close the door and go downstairs, then quickly go to the other side, heading in the direction I know.  After about ten minutes, I'm there.  I push the large front door and I am immediately struck by the well-known smell of dishes made by Ajussi who smiles broadly when he sees me

-Changkyunah like I haven't seen you for a long time, where your loving my kimchi boyfriend says-standing up next to me

-At work, so I'm alone

-Same as always

-The same thing-I smile as I sit down at the table

Meanwhile, I go on social media and come across various negative messages, photos or videos about me.  Honestly, I have been tortured with them for some time.  For what?  I do not know.  I found it once by accident and have been looking for it ever since.  I try not to do it, but it's stronger than me.  People write that I'm pathetic, I'm no good.  They make fun of me in every possible way.  They insult my relationship with Jooheon and ask how someone like him can be with me.