PuppyHoney // Jookyun ✔️

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-Minhyuk help me please-I shout, crying trying to climb up
  -Try-sniffs-Hold on Kyuna please-yells at me trying to pull me onto the roof
  -It doesn't make sense hyung-smile at him surrendering-Take care of the guys.  I love You brother.  I will always-let him go
  -No Changkyun no !!

  I sit up and try to calm down.  I'm looking for a phone with my hands, but I can't find it anywhere.  I just notice it on the cupboard next to it.  He gets up, taking the blanket and the device in his hand, and I go to the elder's room.  I see him sleeping so I smile and just take a picture of him posting it later on Instagram.  I sit down on the ground, covering myself with a blanket.  After a while I see various comments including Joheon who exceptionally went to the studio for the night with Wonho to record a beat tonight. 

He did it because the three of us and Minhyuk are going to the doctor tomorrow.  The whole group agreed that I can't go on like this without sleeping so I need a specialist.  Minhyuk himself is in the restaurant right now making the menu for tomorrow.  Shownu from Hyungwon'en at the night session. 

The post also featured a comment hating who I am but immediately Wonho hyung took care of it and if he knows, Jooheon will know in a moment too.  He's gonna be worried that this has moved me, and to be honest, a bit like that.  This someone wrote the truth, I really am sick and a nuisance to hyungow.  I sigh and tilt my head back to see Kihyun sitting there staring at me with that gaze.

  -Don't even think about it-starts-This someone is not well in mind when he is writing all this

  -Can I  lie down next to you? -I ask and he pushes the covers away

 - Come in, toddler-he says, and I immediately jumps to the place next to him

  -I'm sorry I woke you up and I'm just bothering you but

  -There is neither Jooheon nor Minhyuk hmm?  -He laughed -But there is me and I'm also here for you, you know- covers me with a quilt

  -Thanks hyung

  -What was the dream?  I mean what this time?  Did you fall or not?

 - I dropped-I whispers, and he strokes my head

  -Can I ask you a question?  - he says and I nod - Have you ever had similar thoughts afterwards?  I mean

  -I know what you mean-he pauses-For the next few days after all this but then I saw Minhyuk's pain then on the roof and I couldn't do anything but from then on no.  No suicidal thoughts.  No cuts, nothing like that.

  -You did it?  Were you injured

  -No-sigh and settle comfortably-I was afraid of pain-laughed softly-That's why I wanted to jump.  You know the quick hit and you are over.  It does not hurt

  -You know when you have any problems, can you tell me?  Maybe I'm not Minhyuk, Jooheon or Wonho but I'm here too

  -I know that's why I came.  I didn't want to be alone in this room with my thoughts

  -And you did well and now fall asleep Changkyun-smiles

  I settle down comfortably and close my eyes.  I feel the presence of the elder but I cannot sleep.  So I started to think about everything.  I thought about getting close to Wonho.  That karaoke excursion then brought us closer together and then I realized that she treated him like Shownu.  Since I returned so that I can see Kihyun.  I spent less time with this hyung but I really like him and want to get to know him better.  I was reminded of our performance and his proposal.  I talked about it with Jooheon who encouraged me to do it as much as he could.  My boyfriend totally supports my life decisions for which I am very grateful to him.

  -Hyung are you sleeping?  - I ask quietly

  - Not yet what's going on-, He opened his eyes

  -Is your proposal still valid?

  -Yes of course

  -I am very happy to use it-I say and he smiles at me

  -Tomorrow we will agree on specifics-smiles-And now we will sleep again?

  -And is it strange for me to ask?  -I laughs embarrassed

  -What is Kyunie?

  - Could I hug you?-, I speak and I feel like I'm blushing

  -Sure-He laughs and I cuddle up to him

  -Hyung?

  - Yes?- He asks me

  -You like Minhyuk, don't you?  -I ask

  -What if I say yes

  -Then start working because my brother won't be waiting long-I say and feeling the warmth of hyung I fall asleep.