PuppyHoney // Jookyun ✔️

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I got up in the morning with a huge headache and even more pain in my wrist.  I sat on the bed and tore off the patch.  Two large wounds stood out on my skin.  What was it for?  For what?  Why?  I hurt Minhyuk.  I promised him I'd never do anything stupid again.  I will never hurt him like this again.  What about the rest of the hyungs.  They know too.  They must be worried.  Most importantly, however, is that I hurt Jooheon.  The most important person in the world.  I was always supposed to tell him if something was wrong and what did I do?

-O you are already up, Wolf-I hear Jooheon's voice at which I look at him.  At his smile.  Same as always-How are you feeling?

-You're still here,-I say in a low disbelief.  He stayed with me?  Will he not leave me?

-Of course I'm-smiles as he sits next to me-Did you break the patch?  You shouldn't, is see that it hasn't healed yet-he sighs looking at my wounds, blowing gently at them

-You're here-I whispers, looking at him

-By the way, since you've already taken this patch off, I'll put an ointment and a new dressing on you, wait, I'll go get the first aid kit-he smiles, but at the last moment he grabs his hand-I'll be back soon

-Why are you still . Why are you doing this?-I say looking at him

-What do you mean?- He asks, sitting back down

-Why haven't you left me yet?  Why are you still bothering with me?  You can see what I did to myself and I don't even know why I ... how did it happen - I say biting my lip and feeling tears in my eyes I look down

-You really thought I'd leave you for this? -he asks-Of course I don't like what you did, I'd like to know why.  Why, instead of calling me and saying something is wrong, you decided to do it.  I would like to know what made this happen.  I want to know that so I can help you baby-he says-So you tell me what's in your lovely head?

-I don't know hyung I really have no idea-I sigh-It's just been falling down lately.  My treatment is standing still.  Sometimes my knee hurts so much that I don't think about anything else.  I dropped the pills and my nightmares keep coming back.  They're here again, Joo.  Every day at night.  Same nightmare.  Same roof.  Only the people who either save me or let me fall change.  For this comments about my person. I never, ever, ever had an effect on me the way they do now.  I've always dealt with hate but not like this.  People write that im not suitable for our group, that  im not deserve you and, in fact, they are right.  Well, look, I'm just causing you more worries and problems on your head. I bet your life was peaceful before getting to know me. Plus, tell me how does someone as wonderfully loved as you do with a spoiled person like me? - I end up bursting into tears

-Kyuna-I hear his voice but I don't let him finish what he wants to say

-I'm just afraid that one day you will understand what a hopeless person you are with and leave me. And then nothing will really make sense.  Only you can make my life meaningful

-Changkyun look at me-he says, lifting my head so that he can look into my eyes-It will never happen baby

- How can you be so sure? - I ask when he wipes my tears from his cheeks - How do you know he won't?

-Because I love you like crazy.  Every cell in my body clings to you.  I spend every free moment of my life thinking about you.  My heart beats in one beat.  To the beat of your name.  I love you Im Changkyun and I will never ever stop-talking kissing my forehead, nose, cheeks, lips ending with my wounds-I love them, but please don't hurt your body anymore and me.  Each of your wounds is my wound in the heart, he adds and I just throw myself at him, bursting into tears even more

- Sorry, really sorry Jooheon

-It's okay, honey, everything will be okay,-he says

Half an hour later disguised and with a fresh bandage that hyung did again, asking me not to repeat it again, we go downstairs.  I sit in the chair at the table and watch my boyfriend pass me a plate of pancakes.  He pulls out jam and chocolate cream from the refrigerator.

-When you made the pancakes

-When you took a shower so they can get cold already

-So the better-I smile

-Minhyuk called just now that he is leaving the house-he says and I stop the fork halfway to my mouth

-You told them all the truth?

-I had to Changkyun-he say stroking my head-This is not something we should keep just for us right?  They have a right to know.  Especially since everyone wants to help you.  Now eat

-You cleaned up here? -I ask, eating and he nods

-There was a lot of blood on the ground

-The cut is quite deep

-You know that you are forbidden to consume alcohol by injection, right? -Reminds me what I eat

-Yesterday I outdone myself with everything.  Mutilating yourself, hurting you, neglecting you already detained in the place of treatment.

-Not you baby but your demons but we will take care of them.  We will chase them out of our lives- he says, and at the same time I hear the sound of the door opening, which makes me jump up and run ahead

I fall into the arms of a person I know well.  I am enveloped in this beloved scent of perfume and something else.  Something I can always find in his arms.  The scent of security, love and home.  My home. I burst into tears as I cuddle up to his body.  I feel his hand over my head and play with my hair.

-I'm sorry hyung really sorry - I keep talking

-It's okay Kyunie is okay-caresses me, -We'll overcome it like we did last time. Together as always.  Don't be afraid, your big brother will destroy them all.  One after the other.