The Lust Of The Governor's Night (Marchero Series #2)

Kabanata 22

"I want to tell you something after I left you." I can't even recognize my voice when I said that.

He held my hands tightly as if I would leave him and go nowhere without him. He looks at me intently, eager to know what I wanted to say. 

"What about it?" he asked calmly. 

I took a deep breath. I'll tell him about our child. 

"You got me pregnant but I lose him," I said and look for his reaction, he remained blank. 

"The doctor said I was too stress that my cervix is weak to carry our baby. I'm sorry, this is all my fault." I cried, agonizing our lost child, my baby. 

The product of our love, my supposed limbs, eyes, and maybe's Zaugustus features too. 

He pulled me a give me a tight hug. I feel his head on my shoulder. It was too silent that I can only hear the sound of chirping sound of birds. 

I heard him sniffing and my tears form into my eyes again, he's crying. He's crying for our child. 

We let our hearts out and cried until we can, for our child, the past that we can't change and all the pain we carry while we are apart. I feel like I remove the biggest cyst in my heart when I told him this. 

I feel the sudden relief of telling him that atleast once, we had our child, our own. 

"Ayos lang kung iiwan mo ako pagtapos ng malaman mo." ani ko sa kanya at hindi siya tinitignan. 

"Look at me, Leslie," he commanded but I shooked my head.

"Celestine look at me and tell me what you said earlier."

Tumingin ako sa kanya upang sabihin iyon ngunit napatigil ako, His eyes are telling all of his emotion right now. 

"I love you so much, mahal na mahal kita. Hindi mo kasalanan na nawala ang anak natin. Maybe, God pulled him again to heaven because He needs another angel. He's our angel, baby. He's always gonna stay in our hearts. He is alive while we exist." he uttered seriously. 

Ngumiti ako ng pilit sa kanya at hinawakan ang pisngi niya. 

"Mahal rin kita, hindi nagbago kahit kailan. Ikaw lahat ng dahilan bakit ko ginusto mabuhay matapos mawala ang anak natin." wika ko at nginitian siya. 

Ngumiti siya roon at hinalikan ako sa pisngi. 

"You are the reason for all my success, baby. I did all this thing to deserve you. Celestine, without you, everything is nonsense." pagkatapos noon ay niyakap niya ako. 

Nagpapasalamat rin ako dahil may dumating na patrol na nag-iikot dahil nakauwi na kami. May live conference pala si Zaugustus at kung walang dumating na patrol tiyak na wala siya roon. 

"Hinahanap ka namin kagabi, hindi ka umuwi." tanong sakin ni Kuya dahil hinatid ako ng bodyguard ni Zaugustus sa bahay.

"Nagkaaberya yung kotse ni Agosto at malakas and ulan kaya nagpatila muna kami, saktong walang signal at lowbat naman yung phone ko buti nalang may patrol an nakakita samin." paliwanag ko sa kanya habang naglalakad papunta sa kwarto ko para magpahinga.

Tumango naman siya sakin at sinabihan na mag-ayos dahil mamili daw ng sangkap para mamayang gabi dahil noche buena.

Tumango nalang ako at binuksan ang pinto ng kwarto ko at nagcharge ng phone at kumuha ng damit at naligo, pagkatapos kong maligo ay bumaba ako para kumain ng umagahan kasama ang pamangkin ko, panay tanong sila kung nasaan ako kagabi, sinabo ko na lamang na may ginawa ako pero habang naiisip ko and totoong nangyari kagabi ay nararamdaman kong mainit and pisngi ko.