Alive but can't live (Saved but not save sequel)

2. My fault

Tony pov:
So my dad told me that my mom died and I basically bursted into tears once he said it.
He wrapped his arms around me and we were both actually crying.
I felt terrible.
My mom, the one who said that she'd do anything to get there. That she died because of a damn car which was thrown at her.

I was sitting in my room on my bed for the rest of the day.
I had no friends... No mom... And now I was sitting in my room alone because my dad was figuring things out for mom her funeral.
I sighed as I got up and walked to my laptop to change my file of Inferno.
Yea, I have files on all the superheroes.
"Date of death... 27th of july..." I muttered and I changed her file location to dead people instead of the alive people database...
I felt a tear on my cheek and I whiped it away.
Then I looked at the news to see what even happend and I felt terrible.
I looked at the time and it was my fault. My mom looked at her phone because of my message... She was distracted because of me... She died because of me!

I ran downstairs and looked at my dad.
"It's my fault!"
"What are you talking about?"
"Mom, she's dead because I send her that message!"
"Tony please calm down-"
"It's true and you know it!"
"Tony please!"
He looked at me and I saw the same pain in his eyes as I had a few seconds ago.
"It's not your fault." my dad said and I shoke my head.
'We both know that you're lying. We both know that it was my fault! If I would've not send that message she'd be still alive!"
My dad grabbed me by the shoulders.
"It's not your fault. You sended a message to your mom, that's a normalt hing. That badguy threw a car to your mom, that killed her. He killed her. You didn't. Do you understand?"
"I do but you don't." and I might've ran off.
"Tony!"

My dad catched up with me easily and he sighed.
"Tony, you can't blame yourself for something which you didn't do."
I looked at him while I still had tears in my eyes.
"Come on, I know things are riugh right now... But I need to introduce you to some people because I've got the feeling you'll be seeing them more often from now on."
"Who?"
"The other remaining Avengers."
My mouth fell open en my dad took me upstate. Yea, upstate! To the Avengers building!

So I still felt bad for my mom... But I was also kinda excited to meet the other remaining Avengers...
Y'know, mixed feelings...

So yea... We arrived after quite a long ride.
My dad sighed.
"It's been a long time since I was here last time..."
I looked at him.
"Really? But you're like one of the most known Avengers since Ironman."
"True... But after the endgame most of us split up..."
"Why?"
"To be honest, I have no idea."
So we walked inside and they looked at us.
"Most of you split up huh?" I said and my dad loomed at me.
"Okay your mom and I left them, but we had you to take care of."
"Really? Using your kid as an excuse? Caitlynn would never forgive you for that Parker." One of those guys said.
"You're Starlord right?" I said and the guy grinned.
"The kid did his research."
I smirked as I looked around.
"Let's see... Antman, Mantis, Wasp, Hulk, Hawkeye, Falcon, Drax, Groot, Rocket, Blckpanter, Captain Marvel, Gamora Scarlet Witch, Thor, Dr. Strange..."
"Damn, the kid knows his stuff." Rocket said and my dad looked at me.
"How the hell do you know all of them."
"Language Queens."
I turned.
"And very old captain America who's still alive apparently." I said.
My dad grinned.
"Hey Cap."
"But for real kid, how do you know all of us without introduction?" Dr. Strange asked.
"Well I have files on all Avengers and superheroes."
"Files? Come on, how old are you? Ten?" Starlord asked.
I sighed.
"I guess my mom wasn't wrong about  you being a jerk." I said.
"I like the kid." Drax said and Hawkeye grinned.
"How old is he?" Gamora asked.
"Twelve." Mt dad said and I rolled my eyes.
"Yea for the next two days." I said and Antman grinned.
"Is it funny?" I asked and he stopped grinning.
"But for real, the kid has fire- and spideypowers?" Starlord asked and I looked at the ground.
"Nice going Quill." Scarlet Witch said.
No one else said something and Starlord looked around.
"Did I said something wrong?"
I looked at my dad.
"Can we go home now?"
He looked at me.
"I'm sorry... I-"
"You told them about me, yet not that I don't have any powers at all. I already feel terrible enough that my mom died thanks to me!" and I ran off.
"Tony, wait!" My dad said but I heared that Mantiss stopped him from going agter me.

I sat down by the lake.
Yea I was crying but what did you expect?
"Hey kid..." a voice said and I looked up.
"Mr. Starlord,what do you want?"
"Please, just Quill is fine."
I shrugged and he sat down next to me.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know that you didn't had any powers so I just assumed... It's a weak excuse either way."
"It's not that, I'm upset about."
"Your mother, isn't it?"
"If I haven't send that message... She would've not been distracted... She would've not been killed..."
"Kid, it's not your fault. Trust me I know what you're going through. I know what it's like to lose your mom."
I looked at him.
"I know. Your mom died before you were brought to space."
"You really know your stuff don't you?"
"I try."
"Why do you know so much about us?"
"Cause I know that I'll be usefull one day."
"Let me tell you something no one else knows. Something which is comparable to the pain you feel."
"Like what?"
"You feel guilty for the message. I have a similar pain. Because I also felt guilty after my mom died."
"But she was sick."
"True... But there was this one thing she asked me... When she knew she was dying..."
I saw that Star- Quill had pain and he even had tears in his eyes.
"What did she ask?" I asked softly.
"She asked me to take her hand... But I didn't... And then she died..."
A tear fell down his cheek and he closed his eyes.
"That's the most regret I ever got... And it's still there..."
I looked at him.
"Are you okay?"
"It feels like you'll never be ready to let go. Doesn't it?"
"Yea..."
"There is this small chance you will get over it. Nut that chance wasn't there for me."
I took his hand for a moment.
"Mabey you will. But it just takes more time mr. Quill."
He looked at me.
"You really are a smart kid aren't you?"
"Why do you keep calling me kid? Just call me Tony."
"You're smart loke the guy you were named after."
"Y'know. I'm glad you didn't blast my dad's head off when you met him."
He grinned softly.
"Come on. Your dad's worried about you. Yet I thought I should make it up to you for making you run off."
"I'm fine. And thanks for the talk, sounded like you needed it as well."
"Hey, what was discussed between us, stays between us. Okay?"
I nodded and we went back inside.