" luke? it's calum. i- uh- didn't know that payphones were still a thing, but here i am standing in the middle of.....
sorry im in the middle of brooklyn. i hate it here. it's so much better in the movies, i called it.
fuck okay, so i know i shouldn't be calling you. especially because im-uh-uh-uh not sober.
you told me to stop calling until i got my act together. i promise i had it together for awhile.
i was going to aa, i hadn't had a drink in weeks, but you, luke, did this. why couldn't you wait for me? i'd always wait for you.
whenever you said you didn't like something, i changed it. i left to fix myself for you, but you didn't care.
i want to be there with you always, you know that. i cant believe this is happening and that im actually calling you.
fuck hold on i think im going to throw up.
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remember that time you spent all day throwing up because your mom made you try seafood? i sat there all day with you.
i hate you luke, but i love you more than i hate you for some reason.
i'll get better, i promise. "
