Shawn Mendes imagines

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"Hey guys, it's Shawn Mendes here and honestly...... I don't know what to say. As you can see this was kind of unplanned video. I wanted to do a cover, but then realized that..... My voice and emotions are gone. Y/n took them away, when she left. And without these things i'm nothing, just a blank person, living on the earth. So after a few tries of singing, i kind of just gave up. Here i am, sitting in my bedroom, talking to the camera, all alone. There're so many things i wanna tell you but i just can't. Not because somebody isn't allowing me or i have to keep it as a secret, there're just not enough time. Yeah sure i can make this video 10 or 20 minutes long, maybe even longer but what's the point? I'm pretty sure that half of you, who clicked on this video already left. But that's okay. I think i'm used to it. People always leave. Sometimes you never understand how much you love or need them until you lose them. It hurts. When you lose somebody there's no going back. At least not for my situation. I know that y/n would never take me back. I don't blame her. Who would. I fucked up this time. For a past few months you guys were wondering if something's wrong. I always said no. But it was wrong, really wrong. Our endless fights and arguments, me drinking, hooking up with other girls. This was something i never imagined to happen. If i would have a time clock, if i could just turn back time and tell myself to love her even more than i already do, always have, i would. There's no doubt. I wish Hogwarts and magic was real. It would be so much easier. But i guess there're some problems that even magic can't solve. One of them is not getting any sleep for a past few weeks. I wish to fall asleep and never wake up. It may not solve any problems but it would end everything. And i'm okay with it. That's all i needed to say. Of course, as i said i could go on and on but to save both mine and mostly your time i'm ending this video. Actually not just the video. Everything."