Shawn Mendes imagines

Letter

SAD

"Hey princess. If you're reading this i'm sorry. I didn't wanted to hurt you. Or leave you alone. Or broken. You just can't control some things. People around me, the ones that loved me always said to forget about hate, don't think about it. No matter what are you doing, it's bad or good, big or small you gonna get hate. And you always told me that people are just jealous, hate is just words. Is it? Are they really jealous? Please answer me princess. If they are jealous of me why are they telling me to die? That i'm worthless? Don't they know that words can hurt? I'm sorry. Having you in my life was probably the best thing that happened to me. You were just perfect. From the inside and outside. Brave, kind, smart, honest and most important - selfless. These are the things that i can't say about myself. I'm a coward because i killed myself. I'm also stupid. And a liar. All of those weeks i was telling the world that the hate didn't bother me. Now look where are we. I'm dead and you're reading this letter. I'm sorry that i'm so selfish. I know you need me. Remember when we were on our first date? It was the best day ever. We laughed so loud that we got kicked out of that fancy restaurant we were in. A lot of girls would be sad, but not you. You just laughed harder, took my hand and asked if we could go to the beach. It was dark and cold but worth it. Watching the stars, lying on the sand, cuddling with you felt amazing and so right. Remember our road trips? Shouting along our favorite songs, wind in your hair? What about camping? Remember when we used to go camping, all alone by ourselves? Do you remember how we used to cuddle near the campfire? Or fireplace? Remember our first Christmas? You got me that beautiful bracelet you made it yourself and that i still have it on my wrist. I'm gonna miss all of that so much, gonna miss you so much. We used to say forever and always. I know i'm dead, my body's cold, heart isn't beating anymore, but remember that i'm always gonna be in your heart. Go and find another man. The one that is alive, going to treat you better than i did, love you with all of his heart, spend the rest of his life with you. Go and find him, have babies with him, get old with him. I want you to do that. But there's still one thing. Please remember me, always have me in your heart. I'm okay with you falling in love with another boy, but i just want to know that you'll remember me. Don't be sad. Put that smile on your beautiful face that i love so much and be happy without me.

                                                                                                            Forever and always princess.                                                                                                                                                     
                                                                                                                                                    Shawn