Shawn Mendes imagines

FOR @shawnslittlemuff

If you're dealing with depression just remember that you can always pm me on wattpad.:)

As if depression is something we can easily control. No. There's no way of escaping it, it takes a lot of energy. While others are being happy some people just sink in depression deeper and deeper. Sometimes we don't even feel it that we're screwed, deep deep in the depression hole. That's what happened to me. Depression.

I liked Shawn for as much as i could remember. I mean literally. We were born together, we grew up together. I had many boyfriends before while Shawn didn't had a girlfriend. But a few weeks ago he found one. Lauren. I couldn't blame him, she was gorgeous. While me on the other hand... not so much. One day he asked if something wrong. No. That was my answer. But i lied. Like always. In reality i was so damn broken. I always wanted to forget Shawn with the boyfriends that i had but i never did, i never forgot him. And i never realized that i was hurting me until he started hurting me. Well i don't think he knows that he's killing me from the inside. Day by day he's getting happier and i'm getting sadder. Why i'm letting depression take over me? I don't know. I shouldn't it's a wrong thing to do. Maybe i should just tell him my feelings? I don't know.

Have you ever felt like you have lied too much and there's no way of escaping it? Well i surely did. But i'm going to escape it. Just not the lies.

I promise that one day i'll be around i keep you safe i keep you sound.

Maybe one day Shawn.

A/N: I don't know why but i actually cried reading this.