Untold addiction (discontinued )

4

The air is tense as all you can hear is the sound of untesil clinking together as I push my potato around eating it here and there to not seem suspicious I drink my water constantly to clench the hunger

I absolutely hate having dinner with my brother they hate my guts and there always tension in the air I mean what stupid person made the rule you have to sit at the dinner table and eat with your family oh wait I know who that stupid person is it's my ogre looking brother sitting at the head of the table acting like his some sort of king but please his a peasant compared to Damon Salvatore

Once everyone done eating we are finally aloud to leave the table so I go back to my happy place well it use to be but now I'm left alone with my thoughts i decide to do some star jumps to lose the calories from dinner putting my headphones in I get to work to lose the pounds

43 minutes into the future ••••

Trying to get air into my burning lungs I take deep breathe and wipe the sweat away from my forehead I just did around 360 star jumps my body feel exhausted as sweat pours of me and drips onto the ground I grab my towel from my chair and wipe the sweat away from my body then wipe the floor then head to the shower as I make my way into the the bathroom Taking my clothes of I avoided the mirror once again and hop into the steaming shower calming my aching muscle as I sink to the shower floor i pull my knees up to my chest think about the times when life where the best

When mum and dad would dance to the music and having a loving look in there eyes and dad would twirling me around like I was his little princess and my brothers would play kicks with the ball and would let me join them when they use to hug me and shower with me love and act like I was the only person in there live who matter to them and our parents would shower us all with love and try to prove they love us every minute of the day even when they where busy all the way on the other side of the world now look at me now all alone in this big scary world or alone

Tears prick at my eyes as I remember the happy times when I knew everything was going to be okay I bite my arm as I cry crying for being ugly,crying for been fat,crying for killing my parents and most of all crying because I lost my big brothers that meant the world to me

Once I calm down enough I quickly wash my body and hope at I blow dry my hair slip into my baggy sweat pants and a baggy jumper that's  way to many sizes bigger than me I grab my laptop and do some more searches on google

Methods to lose weight quickly  .....
How to make people your friend .....
Quick ways to get food at of your system ....
Etc ....

Once I think I found enough information I decide to continue watching vampire diaries until I fall asleep and hell names school begins again hopefully my main bullies aren't there tomorrow