Untold addiction (discontinued )

5

Waking up to my alarm Clock blaring with my face still buried in my pillow i sigh and slam my hand down onto where my alarm clock is placed but my eyes go wide and I scream in pain as I look and see I slammed my hand onto my catus instead of my alarm no not my precious catus I take my hand off the catus and blood begins to appear as I hiss in pain

my alarm clock is still going as I pick it up end peg it at the wall piece of shit I say in my head how dare it wake me up when I was hibernating in the warmth away from this dread place scoffing I get at of bed and rinse my hand under cold water while brushing my teeth with my other hand once done I put my hair up into a low pony tail and go to my closet

Deciding to wear something simple like I always do to hide as much skin as possible and to hide my fatness I put on a long sleeve top with a simple shirt over it it matching with black jeans with a rips on the knees grabbing my biggest jumper I put it over me to hide my body a bit more I sigh making my way down stairs knowing my brothers are already up as I heard them this morning running around like headless chicken trying to find there football gear or whatever

waling down the elegant stairs I enter to the place that use to be heaven but now is a nightmare you guessed it that's  right the kitchen where or the food is I see all my brothers munching away on there food like pigs I roll my eyes at them even though I would never actually do it in there view sight I walk to the sink and fill My water bottle putting it in to my school bag I turn around and see there all looking at me with a face of disgusted I gulp

see even your brothers know your fat they can see how fat you are I mean look at you my thoughts say

I lower my head under there intense stares
I..im going to walk to sss...chool I say with a stutter which makes me lower my head even lower if possible

look how weak you are your pathetic my thoughts say I shake them away not wanting to go deeper into my thoughts

"Leave then why are you still standing there"Leo says with harsh voice 

me and Leo use to be really close well I use to be close with all my brothers but me and Leo where inseparable we spent every bit of everyday together we would tell each other secrets and when I had a nightmare I would sneak into his room and we would cuddle me and my brother had a very special relationship that all my other brothers where jealous of

My eyes start to tear up and my heart feel like it breaking away even more is someone peeling onion in here God damn yeeting my tears away I nod my head and exit the door just as I was leaving I heard my oldest brother say in a stern voice "makes sure your back right after school you know the rules" as I shut the door on my behinds