Don't Be Like Me || ✔️

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TW: DESCRIPTIVE self-harm
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Hoseok grumbled. Rubbing his eyes tiredly as he looked at Yoongi with his confused and tired eyes.

"What is it?" Hoseok asked. Yoongi glanced at Jimin's door. Pushing Hoseok back into his room. Holding out the 3 crumpled paper and passing it to him. Hoseok opened them reading the notes before seeing the ripped-out photo of him.

"Someone's after Taehyung?" Hoseok asked.

"Where did you get this, when did this all happen?" Hoseok asked but Yoongi cut him off.

"That's not important, I need you to do something. Taehyung is beginning to hurt himself." Yoongi added. Hoseok frowned until realization hit. He places the papers away.

"How is he?" Hoseok asked. Immediately panicking.

"I'll talk to him. It's Jimin I need help with." Yoongi added. Hoseok heart sank. Jimin should've been the last person to know any of this. He is really sensitive went it came to these things. Hoseok didn't say much. Knowing exactly what's wrong. Yoongi felt a little more relief. Hoseok is the only one who can calm Jimin down. All of them have a different approach but Hoseok's approach somehow just calms Jimin down faster than the others.

Yoongi gently knocked on Taehyung room. Taehyung on his bed. Hugging his knees as he cried. Scratching himself hard. Yoongi could feel the anger and frustration coming from the younger member. Yoongi walked up to him. Gently placing his hands onto the member's wrist. Taehyung struggled. Wanting to be let go off but Yoongi didn't budge. Keeping a steady hold on the member.

Taehyung cried harder. He was scared. He was aware of what he had done and he was scared. The voices chanting uncomforting words to him made it worse. It was suffocating.

He just wanted to breathe.

He clawed his neck. Lettingoutfitss of coughs before he started gasping for air as if he was drowning. Yoongi took this to notice. Gently wrapping his arm around the younger member and patting his back.

"It's okay. You are okay. Just breathe." Yoongi whispered gently. Taehyung began hyperventilating but Yoongi didn't panic. He knew how to handle the situation. Whispering encouraging words. Those exact words drowning his thoughts.

He choked out a sob. He was exhausted. He just wanted to stop everything and go home. Many things were scribbled through his head but there's one that bothered him the most.

There's one that was weighing him down his heart.

'Maybe she was right...i deserve to go.'

He is tired. He just wants everything to stop. He was thinking about these things. Not knowing how his body reacted. He was hugging his knees again. Ears covering his bright red ears as he sobbed. Yoongi couldn't hide his worry anymore longer.

He pulled the younger male into a hug. Patting his back gently. Yoongi has no idea what goes on up in his head.

Nobody will know what's in your head unless you say it. Yoongi, as someone who doesn't express himself well, has a couple of nights crying to himself. Reaching his breaking point.

Sometimes, when you don't show much of your emotions. When you finally do. It's embarrassing to think about it. It's funny when you think of it but it can be built jealousy. Yoongi can't understand Taehyung 100% but he wasn't stupid. It wasn't like he had no feelings. He does but he just never learned to use them.

Yoongi wasn't sure of the words he could use so he just hugged the crying member in his arms no matter how long he took.
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"Jimin?" Hoseok called out. Opening the door. His room was dark and he was settled as his balcony. Looking outside. Hoseok saw Jimin wiping his face. Eyes slightly watery and nose red. Hoseok sat down next to him.

"Why are you crying?" Hoseok asked although he knew the answer. Jimin looked up. Trying to stop his tears. Hoseok rubbed his back gently. Jimin gave up. Breaking down.

"I'm just so angry." Jimin sobbed. Hoseok raised his eyebrows.

"At Taehyung?" Hoseok asked. Jimin shook his head.

"At myself. I influence him. It's my fault he's doing these things. I- I'm such a bad friend." Jimin sobbed. Hoseok let out a soft sigh.

"None of this is your fault. Taehyung is being threatened and harassed by some unknown fan. He is bound to break down one way or the other." Hoseok explained.

"Yoongi told me everything and showed me the papers. Clearly, from all the notes. She's a sasaeng. She went to our concert and fan meeting so she might show up in the next." Hoseok said. Jimin nodded. Wiping his tears.

"I just want to know who she is and stop her," Jimin added. Hoseok nodded, feeling the same way.
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Taehyung woke up, Yoongi who was asleep on the couch in his room while he was lying down on his bed. He didn't remember exactly what happened but remembered Yoongi hugging him before everything faded.

Taehyung rubbed his eyes. Standing up weakly, using the bed as his support and made his way to the bathroom. Taehyung stood in front of the mirror. Goosebumps appeared on his body. He didn't know how to feel at that moment.

He looked hideous. His eye circles getting slightly dark. The bandage on his wrist has a patch of blood on it. His hair was all messed up. His eyes were slightly swollen. Looking at himself, he wondered.

Maybe it was better if he left.

He didn't fit in.

He has to leave.

He needs to leave.

You should leave!

Kill yourself!

You don't belong in Bangtan!

Die!

Taehyung eyes sting with tears as those words got louder. Screaming across each other those repeated words. Taehyung shaky hands reached out for the blade on the sink. Jimin forgetting to put the thing away.

Taehyung lowered go his knees. Tears streaming down his face as he placed the blade on his wrist. He hesitated. A side of him just praying for someone to come in and stop him.

'Why did you stop?'

'Do it, kill yourself.'

'They WILL do better without you."

Taehyung pressed the blade deep into his wrist, making long vertical lines on his arm. He didn't stop. Going deeper with each stroke he made on his wrist.

Something in him snapped awake. He immediately dropped the blade. Looking at his bloody arm. His chest began rising up and down from panic. He looked around the feeling of guilt rushed in.

He suddenly began remembering Jimin's face earlier. He weakly stood up. Eyes all over the place. His head was pounding from the loss of blood.

"Jimin...Jimin.." Taehyung muttered as he stumbled out of his room, passed Yoongi.
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Jimin lied down against his pillow. Letting out a sigh. He closed his eyes but he couldn't sleep. He shifted here and there but he couldn't sleep.

The door opened. Jimin saw a silhouette of someone. Jimin heard a soft sob and instantly recognise who it was.

"Taehyung??" Jimin called out.

"J-Jimin, it hurts..." Taehyung sobbed.
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