Don't Be Like Me || ✔️

12

The other members not questioning anything and obeying immediately.
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"What's wrong?" Yoongi asked as Jin pulled the members away from the door. Jungkook was hiding behind the wall by himself. Glancing inside the small window of the door. Jimin was confused but he isn't allowed to leave the ward without permission.

"Jungkook went through what Jimin did. Anorexia." Jin spoke up. The members were fairly shocked except Namjoon who was aware of it. Hoseok, judging from Namjoon reaction, immediately knew Namjoon was aware.

"You knew too?" Hoseok asked. Namjoon nodded slightly.

"He usually has big meals especially since he has been working out but he came home from the gym and went to shower and slept immediately," Namjoon explained. That was also another reason why he was so hard on himself. He figured out there was something wrong with Jungkook but had no clue about Jimin.

"I made him check his weight and saw that he was severely underweight but he wasn't too happy about it so I forced him to eat," Namjoon mumbled. He remembered that day clearly.

Flashback

The others were out for their vacation but he and Jungkook decided to stay at the dorm. Namjoon was working on the lyrics for his new song and was spending time with himself. Going to parks and book café. Jungkook left early that morning. Having a bar of granola before leaving.

He told Namjoon beforehand he'll be at the gym and that was exactly what Jungkook did. He spent hours and hours at the gym with no actual meal and constant sips of water. That went on for a good 3 days before Namjoon starts catching on.

The younger member looked sick. Pale, skinny, and his face was dull. Namjoon kept his suspicious low. Deciding to follow the younger to the gym that day. Jungkook spends an hour running the treadmill before started carrying weights right after.

Namjoon was half-way through giving up at that point. Asking the member to eat lunch with him but the member decline. Namjoon decided to head back home.

Ordering some food he bought for both him and Jungkook. Namjoon was about to finish his meal when Jungkook got home.

Jungkook went straight to his room to bathe. Namjoon cleaned the table. Heading to his room. Jungkook was on his bed, drying his hair.

"I ordered food for you. Go eat it." Namjoon said.

"I'm good" Jungkook replied.

"I bought it already. You have to eat it." Namjoon said. Jungkook froze.

"I'm not hungry..." Jungkook muttered. Namjoon let out a sigh.

"What did you eat today?" Namjoon question. Jungkook took too long thinking. Namjoon went in. Grabbing the member by the wrist. Jungkook tried to pull himself away but Namjoon tugged him so he could walk faster.

He pulled out a weighing machine. Jungkook stood on it. Glancing the number with a disappointed look

"56kg?!" Namjoon shouted.

"Jungkook you are severely underweight. You have to eat not to carry weight." Namjoon continue. Jungkook shook his head. about to run away but Namjoon got his arm in time.

"Eat," Namjoon spoke sternly.

"No! I- I can't!" Jungkook cried. Namjoon pulled him to the dining table. Setting the food up. Jungkook sat there sobbing.

Namjoon looked at him in worry as Jungkook hands started shaking. Jungkook ended up eating the food with tears streaming down his face.

Namjoon let out a soft sigh. Jungkook was gobbling up the food. Who knows how long he had been starving himself. Namjoon sat next to the member. Holding him by the shoulders.

"What's wrong? Why are you doing this?" Namjoon asked.

"I saw a comment under my post about my body image and I- I thought working out every day for 1 hour was good enough but when I saw those comments I just thought I needed to work out more." Jungkook sobbed. Namjoon pulled the member into a hug. Patting his back. Letting him sob onto his shoulders.

"You can work out all you want but don't skim on your meals, you can get seriously hurt..."
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"He is okay now?" Hoseok asked. Namjoon nodded.

"I stopped him just before it got worse," Namjoon said. The members let out a sigh of relief.

"He couldn't talk to Jimin knowing that how he could've ended up..." Jin added.

"But he's going to now," Jin said. Glancing behind as Jungkook entered the ward. Jungkook sat on the chair. Looking down nervously.

"We should give them space. They can still see us from here" Yoongi said. Leading the members elsewhere.
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Jimin watches as Jungkook entered his ward. Head faced down. Nervous. Jimin wasn't aware of what happened other than him getting stuck in the rain.

"I-...Don't get me wrong." Jungkook finally spoke.

"I don't hate you for what you did. I understand you more than anyone else." Jungkook continued. Jimin squints his eyes. Confused.

"What do you mean...?" Jimin asked. Jungkook let out a shaky sigh. Still avoiding eye contact. Holding his own hands tightly.

"I know how it feels...to h-have a hard time eating. I saw some comments online and it pulled my entire self-esteem down." Jungkook explained. Jimin nodded.

"If you understand me so well why did you avoid me?" Jimin asked in a soft voice.

"B-because...At that time, I didn't realize that I could end up here. All I thought of was to be skinny"  Jungkook admitted. Jimin looked down. He did feel guilty for what he did. Even if the members never did blame him. He still felt bad.

Jungkook finally looked up. Revealing his teary eyes. Jimin chuckled softly. Pulling the members into a tight hug before sobbing himself.

"I'm sorry... I should've realized what you went through." Jungkook sobbed. Jimin shook his head. Hugging the younger member tighter.

"It's not your fault...don't blame yourself," Jimin said.

"You too then...don't blame yourself either. It's something we can't control. The voices and insecurity." Jungkook said pulling away from the hug.

"In the end, all of this is a part of us. We just have to embrace it." Jimin added. Wiping his tears.

Jungkook nodding. Not being able to agree more with that line.
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Ayee, I usually write my books last minute so im glad this is written one week before publishing JSKSKSK.

It's 4 am rn so Imma head to sleep. Nightttt~