Don't Be Like Me || ✔️

21

"There's more where this came from..."
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The members all got together, yoongi coming back from hiding in his room after finding out there were more notes. All 6 boys were searching Taehyung's room and the entire house if they can find more notes.
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While the members were busy looking for ways to put the crazy fans back in their spot. Taehyung was in his ward. All alone.

The members were caught up in trying to help him and find more evidence, electing the fact he was still suffering alone.

The negative thought was eating him alive the longer he stayed in the hospital bed. Nobody visited him although the nurse told him, someone, when to check up on him before leaving.

He didn't have the members present. He pulled his knees to his chest. Feeling more insecure. The members weren't visiting him when he's wide awake. What if they hated him.

Those words said by the fans were all true.

Taehyung's body tense. He squeezed his eyes closed. Trying to force himself to sleep.

They don't need you, why do you think they aren't here with you?

Taehyung closed his ears tightly. Curling into a ball on the bed. Shaking.

Kill yourself.

Kill yourself.

Kill yourself.

The words chanted in his head. Taehyung opened his eyes. Gasping for air. His cheat feeling heavy and lungs shutting down on him. Anxiety attack. Taehyung looked around. Eyes watering as he sat on the bed alone.

"No...no..., they'll be back...they will" Taehyung sobbed. Hugging his knees as he cried into them. The ward got quiet again.

The nurse came in, giving him his pills, and sat down.

"Are you okay?" She asked. Gently rubbing his back to ease his sobs.

"Why is nobody here?..." Taehyung asked.

"What if the members hate me?" He asked. She smiled softly.

"They don't hate you..."

'we hate you.'

"I don't want to be alone..." Taehyung added. Ignoring the voices.

"You won't. They are idols too, I'm sure they are trying to find ways to visit you." The nurse replied.

'We will let you rot here.'

"I want to go back..."

"You will, soon." She said.

'Just die!'

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The members search everywhere but can't seem to find any more traces of the notes. They were all exhausted and Jimin almost passed out since he was still very sick and moving heavy furniture to get their hands on evidence

It was night time and the member all got ready to sleep. They were all caught up with Taehyung's safety. They forgot about his health. All alone in the ward with his persistent inner voice. 

The members spent weeks looking for something. Others searching his suitcase and bags for the fan notes but they only found a couple in the drawer that was cute ones. It was so much less than the ones that were delivered to them.

Jin didn't touch his phone at all the entire time. Missing the phone calls from the hospital.
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"LET ME GO!" Taehyung shouted. He was on top of a male nurse. Trying to punch him in the face. Taehyung got random hallucinations of the nurse telling him the mean things his voice had always told him. It perked him so much. He didn't hear the actual words the nurse was asking.

The other nurses tried to stop him but he only got more aggressive. Taehyung escaped the nurse's grasp and got it the male nurse. Running out of his ward and into the busy streets. He was so suffocated.

'Hey...im here..'

A dark voice spoke. Taehyung heard it loud and clear. Seeing a man standing at the other side of the road with his hood covering his eyes. Taehyung ran down the street. Main focus on the man standing there with no fear.

Because that 'man' is his fear...

Car horns and angry screams emitted from the road. The nurse stopping the traffic and tackled Taehyung on the ground. The nurse got sedate on him despite the struggles.

It only took a couple of seconds before he got exhausted. The same male nurse he tried to attack earlier on. Carried him back. Taehyung tilted his head back. Seeing the hooded man laughing at him.
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The 6 members were all back for a meeting. Everything left their minds when the manager told them that they tried to keep track of the mails that were getting to the main post office and said there was at least 40 mail coming from the same address. The members got even more determined

They were going to find the 40 emails and see whether it will be the evidence they needed to solve everything.
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2 month...

It was 2 months since the members last visited him.

Their main plan was to help him but slowly losing hope and they were all getting back to their jobs. Songwriting and everything. The members-only for updates from their manager on Taehyung but their manager only checked upon him when he was asleep. Not awake.

Taehyung got worse. His hallucinations got worse and he was put in a room under watch at all times. He had to wear a special vest to stop him from hurting himself.

He already hands multiple scratches and bruises from hurting himself. Even punching the window with his hands. Wanting to escape.

He got a higher dosage of medicines that he still refuses to eat. He hugged his knees. Getting tired but he also felt something off.

The man, in the hoodie. Was now calmer. Seating across him in the same position he was in.

"You were right..." Taehyung croaked. Throat dry, lips wet and eyes holding everything but the will the life.

"Hm?" The man in the hoodie responded.

"They are never coming back..." Taehyung continued.

"They left me here...you at least stayed even after I tried to get rid of you." Taehyung muttered.

"Do you want to end this?" The man asked. Taehyung contemplated. He always told himself the member will visit him. The members will come back. He did that for 2 agonizing months but no one did. He still hoped for the members present. Even if it was just one of them. Taehyung let out a miserable sob.

"What is the solution?" Taehyung asked

"Death" the man immediately responded.

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"I'm up for it."
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Hi y'all, just realized that when I re-wrote this book that the 'a/n' written at the bottom were all from the past so ignore it as you please 🤸‍♂️