Don't Be Like Me || ✔️

19

"Tomorrow is going to be a long day."
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The traffic was very bad. Taehyung was sobbing, keeping pressure on his wound. 

Jin checked up on the member. Ensuring he was alright. The towel was about to be at the peak of being too wet to soak any of the blood. The towel was small and it couldn't handle the amount of blood coming out of the wounds.

"N-no..." Taehyung whimpered out of no where. His eyes watering. Jin's head snapped towards the younger member.

"No! N-no! Leave me alone!" Taehyung shouted. Jin held his shoulder. He was shocked at the sudden outburst created by Taehyung. It was as if Taehyung didn't recognize him. Trying to squirm out Jin's grip.

"Let go! Let go of me!" Taehyung shouted. Jin immediately cupped his cheeks.

"Tae, Tae! Hey, look at me." Jin spoke in a louder tone. Taehyung snapped out of his trance. Letting shaky and shallow breaths. Taehyung eyes got red and teary before he started sobbing. Jin gently pulled him into a hug. Rubbing his back, trying to comfort him as much as possible.

"It's okay, I'm here...I'm here.." Jin whispered into his ears. Taehyung only nodded softly but still sobbing. Jin pulled away from the hug when he calmed down. Jin passing him a piece of tissue. Jin looked back at his wrist. The towel was hopeless at that point.

Jin grabbed another longer towel stored in the car. Folding it and removing his sweater. He placed the folded towel onto the wound and wrapped his sweater tightly around it. Taehyung winced, Jin letting out a small apology. The road was back on track. They could finally move.

"Hyung..." Taehyung called out. Jin turned to him in a quick moment before looking back at the road. Taehyung was nervous. He didn't know if he should explain himself.

"I'm stupid. I allowed them to get into my head." Taehyung spoke softly. Jin bit his lips. Getting some clue on what causes this trip to the hospital.

"They called me names, they threatened me and at the very least I could do was ignore them. I-" Taehyung cut himself off. Trying to hold back his tears.

"Jimin...he looked disappointed. He's angry at me. I made him cry. I made Jimin cry." Taehyung spoke again. Remembering how Jimin begged on his knees. Sobbing at him to not be like him.

"He thinks he influences me. I know how bad this thing gets but I am so freaking stupid to let it get in my head. I'm want to kill myself for being so stupid!" Taehyung outburst in the car. Slapping himself by the face. Jin immediately grabbed his arm. Holding him firmly to stop himself from hurting himself.

"I'm an Idol. I signed up for this. I should've held on. I should've just ignored those words." Taehyung uttered the last words. Jin's eyes got red. He was feeling bad for the younger member but he also needed to remind him of something.

"Taehyung please." Jin started. Eyes still on the road. However, his grip on the stirring wheel was tight. His knuckles were turning white. Taehyung bit the inside of his cheeks. Waiting for Jin to continue speaking.

"Idols are idols. We sign up for this because of our passion for music or dance. We all came from different backgrounds and were put into a room with other random people to work on a dream. Our dream job as a team"

"Idol is just a term being used for us. It's the same thing as someone working in a court. I know, we suffer from other hardships. Insecurities, saesang fans, having 1 to almost 0 privacy the moment we chose this pathway but I hope you don't forget we are humans too."

"We have emotions, we have times we go crazy and hyper, and other times we just feel like we want to world to end. Being an idol doesn't change your self-worth. Because when you look at yourself in the mirror. You call yourself Taehyung, not V."

"We aren't machines who are made to perform all the time for other people's entertainment. We need air, food, water, and rest just like any other humans. We are not perfect Tae. We all make mistakes." Jin said. Taehyung listened to the words with a guilty heart. Jin let out a shaky breath. He was very close to his breaking point. He nearly cried.

The drive got quiet and they finally arrived. Taehyung looked extremely worried. Jin got him inside and they went straight to the front counter. They saw the cuts and quickly assign them to someone.

The room was different, it was spacious and have a tint of colors to it instead of the boring white walls. The doctor was seated in her seat with a small smile.

Taehyung says down in the car and she didn't say much or questioned him. She just gently placed his arm on the table flat down. She opened the sweater and inspect the cuts The cuts were again, very long and deep. She looked up at Taehyung who was close to tears. Seeing the wound and where he ended up. She stood up and tried to make eye contact.

"Listen okay? I'm sorry but there will be a couple of stitches. It can be scary but I'll try my best to help you." She said. She pulled a trolley that had a tray. She pulled put a syringe.

"This is a numbing medicine" she added. Inject ing not only once but 3 times. She had to do it. Jin had to hug him and kept his face away from the needles.

"Alright, that's done. Good job! Now, 15 minutes of waiting time, and we'll start." She spoke. Leaving with the tray to get some things. Taehyung looked at the wound with panic. Eyes watering.

"I- I- I can't feel my arm. Hyung, h-help I can't feel my arm." Taehyung sob. Overwhelmed. Jin hugged him again. Trying to calm him down and tell him he was okay.

After 15 minutes, the nurse came back with the needles and she started to patch up with the wounds. It took a good half an hour and she was done. Taehyung got drowsy. Jin helped him onto the couch so he could get some rest.

The nurse called Jin outside of her office. She held a soft smile.

"Can I ask some questions about Taehyung?" She asked. Jin nodded. She leads him to someplace quiet and finally had their talk.

"Has he had any records of mental health issues?" She asked. Jin shook his head.

"Have you seen him acting off lately?" She asked again. Jin, once again. Shook his head.

"Are there any explanations you know of that caused this?" She asked.
Jin looked down. Not knowing how to explain because ly don't know.

" My teammates, they might know," Jin added softly. She tilted her head.

"I'm an idol group, a teammate of mine was the one that woke me up and told me to send him here. I have no idea about anything."

"Is there anyways I can reach them? Will they be coming to visit him?" She asked.

"I'm not sure- wait, visit him?" Jin spoke out of shock. She let out a soft sigh.

"He has to be warded for a week. He will be on my and my assistant's care fo ensure he doesn't do anything to hurt himself. Plus, I'll be counseling him for the 7 days." She added. Pulling out a sheet of paper from the clipboard.

"You need to sign here if you are planning to stay." She added. Passing him the paper. Jin took it.

"I'll discuss it with my members." He added. She nodded.

"I have to check if the room is ready for him. I'll call you once everything is set." She added. Jin nodded, watching her leave.
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This is a back story of the car ride between Jin and Tae. Pretty much a filler. Hehe.