My own brother invites the kid who has put me in the hospital, right after this whole collision happened?! Are you fucking kidding me. I hate life. I hate it. I hate it I hate it.
I sit on the curb with my head buried in my hands.
That passionate feeling of the razor gliding down my wrist is calling my name. I have people shouting at me to give up. My own body is breaking itself down. Cameron doesn't want me anymore. He hates me. My own flesh hates me. Oh but don't worry I hate myself too. The driving feeling speeds down my body...
but I can't
I'm not in the house. I am alone and cold. I wish it was always like this though... with no bitchy brother, with no people I hate, with no interruptions between each thought.
I don't even know why Cam is being such a dick. I miss when I used to be able to talk to him and give him a kiss on the cheek before school. Now I can't even look at him without him asking me why I am doing so. I miss that brotherly relationship. A few minutes pass by, still sitting on the road...
I turn over and throw up... casually.
My phone rings.
"What the fuck do you want?!" I ask assuming it's Cameron. "uh to talk ahaha" the voice says... oops... "Who is this?" I ask "Jack ahah who else". "Oh sorry Johnson..." I sniffle a bit, "Why are you crying and where are you?!" he asks demandingly. "Outside, turn left and go to that ally across the street" I say. "You're not in that fucking alley are you?!" Johnson asks. I hang up. It was a different alley. But it was AN alley.
A lot is flowing through my mind right now... the thought of my best friend. I was tapped by someone a tiny bit later. Expecting it to be Johnson I looked up faintly.. only to be punched in the face really hard. I squeal and fall into my side clenching my eyes closed as I gasp for the floor. I open my eye slightly as a leg lifts up and kicks me hard in the rib. I squeal again. I sit there gasping for air, sobbing out loud. "MADELINE?!" yells someone walking into the alley. The man runs through the other side. He looks back at me....
Matt
and the person running in is cam
"Cameron" I ask in a wince,
"Madeline it's Johnson" he says correcting me.
You're kidding..
