*flashback*
I wake up slowly but not feeling so good. I start to overthink everything. I look over to see someone holding me
no... not Gilinsky.
and your probably guessing Matt...
but no not Matt.
I was in Jack Johnson's arms for the night
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I mean I wouldn't mind that happening again but the last time that happened everything ended into a mess.
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"Stop" I say faintly. "I'm so sorry baby, I didn't mean to, I mean I did because I wanted to but not to make anything happen I guess I mean I've always remembered when we were UGH IM HIGH WHY AM I TALKING?!" He shouts. I walk up to him and hold his hand I pull him onto the bed. He sits comfortably and I adjust myself too. "Spill it jj" I say.
"It's always been in my mind"
"w-" I start
"yOU! Your lips, your gentle but strong hugs, your face, your eyes your body, but the worst part is us. When we were sitting down on that lawn, lights flashing against our faces and you were hopeless. Stories have been planted in my mind, I thought you and me and us and me and you and you and you and me and weren't going to say hi ever again"
I laugh off the tear that just fell from my cheek. "You know I love you right. And you know that I love Matt too and I can't leave Matts side. And you'll probably forget this talk and everything happened so I might as well just do what I want now." I lean into him and connect our lips. Again they fit perfectly, I forget about everything, where I am, cam, matt, my life... I just do it, and it feels amazing to forget all of those things for a few seconds. I kissed him for about a minute and looked him in the eyes with passion. "Thank you."
I fell asleep when he left. Music was still blaring in my ears and it was extremely hard to sleep. I gave Johnson my new number and told him we should hang tomorrow if he wasn't wasted out because of tonight. It was not until 5:49 am when the music died down and im pretty sure everyone left or hung around. I heard a knock on my door and knowing me thinking its Cam coming to check up on me, I got up matts huge hoodie and underwear, makeup smudged not giving a shit and opened the door.
"Who uh who is it" I say from one side of the door walking towards it.
"Me" the voice says.
"Like im supposed to-" i walk into a box laying on the floor due to my eyes being shut. "FUCK" I say wimping.
"Let me in?" The voice says really low. "Uhh no" I moan,
In walks Gilinsky. I open my eyes and focus them on the blurry tall thing standing in my doorway. "Can we talll. HAHA TALK!?" he asks shutting the door and locking it too... oh fuck for real...
