THE LORDS OF JUSTICE

37 : The Third Eye Showed His Death❗

Dedicated to SamEl145

Darshan had no clue where to start or with what he should start the conversation, when he asked the preference question he had no fear but confusions. But Yash did not utter any word, for a blink of eyes, Darshan caught the pain on Yash's cold facade and it vanished as soon as it appeared like it was never there. Darshan felt guilty for such a start, he shouldn't have said the thing, that he knew who was the person beside him, but rather should've kept the conversation a bit easy, after all they met after two weeks of gap.

Tilting his head to Yash's face, Darshan asked "How have you been in these days?"

Yash looked at Darshan and their eyes met, Darshan clearly could see the tiredness in those dim golden brown eyes, but what was tiring the Death Lord?

As Darshan averted his eyes, Yash gave a sad smile to himself and said "Like always, busy with work and life. I hope Bhargav kept you a well company?"

Darshan found a lie in those words, keeping his eyes ahead he said "Yash, I know you're lying. I just want to tell you that you don't have to feel yourself guilty for my outburst or anything. It was never your fault to hide yourself, okay. I understand that I overreacted on the truth but I should've realised that earlier. So this couldn't come to this point."

Darshan hold his breath while waiting for Yash's reaction, but there was none except the sad smile.

When Yash realised that Darshan was waiting for his answer, he exhaled a soundless sigh and calmly said "Darshan, you don't have to press yourself for accepting this life, the others or me. I will never put these things on you. I don't want myself as a burden on you. Just do what your heart your wants."

As soon as those words left Yash's mouth, his eyes fell on Darshan's and they were almost teary. Darshan looked pained, raged and frustrated too, while Yash kept the same sad smile with his cold gaze. But to Darshan the slightest quiver on Yash's lips gave him a hint that he still had something to tell and for that he was lacking courage.

With heavy breaths, Darshan tried to clarify himself "Yash, trust me, you're not pressing this to me. I'm accepting this in my life, I'm accepting you in my life. My own negligence screwed up everything. It's me who should take the blame instead of you."

A self-blaming Darshan was the last thing Yash needed to see, his posture stiffened more. Darshan realised whatever fear was holding back Yash, was gone. A dread feeling arose within Darshan as if he was going to hear which he would never dare to listen.

When Yash talked, his voice seemed as cold as he looked, but the blinking golden brown eyes gave away the pain inside of the person.

"Don't blame yourself, Darshan. I'll never forgive myself if you keep any remorse to yourself. Actually I should've known that from the beginning, I should've controlled myself. I should've kept away from you, so that you wouldn't have to face these."

Darshan's tears rolled out of his eyes, his voice was quivering to the point of breaking, still he kept his strength.

"So you regret it. I don't know how to make you believe. But I know a thing for sure and that is my heart and soul belongs only to you. I can not deny my feelings for you, not even when you are denying yours. If you think ofme as a selfish person, then I'm selfish when this is coming to you. And I want you to be selfish for once, for me."

How could Yash make Darshan believe that the life he would have had with the Death Lord was never an ideal life at all, at least not until he became Divine again? He was selfish enough to keep his pains, loneliness to himself.