Destiny🥰

1. Introduction

Hello.
Just hello for now as I'm getting late. It's my first day to hospital as an intern. I finally passed my medical examination and mention not, more than happy I was anxious. Damn anxious that I forgot my  posting. Phone..damn it! Where the heck is my phone? I just had kept it on bed and it's... it's not here. Wow!
I threw away everything that was on bed and I got my phone ringing on book self. Idiot me!
"Hello, Yeah. I'm getting ready. I will catch you guys soon. Hey, which posting are we in, my mind just went blank. "
Ok.ok
Phone cut-off.

Clothes,apron.....Ironed!
Stethoscope, pen,notepad...kept in bag.
And now?
Fuck, why am I trembling? I took antianxiety drugs already and yet no effects? Why do I keep forgetting things?
Inhale...deep and then exhale...
Again. Inhale deeper and then exhale.
Go for 5 rounds.

"Hello, Dr." I got startled when my sister called me out of her cosy blanket. "Take it easy. You've made it to this far. You definitely will rock it. Keep calm and enjoy the internship. If you can find someone and fall in love. It's beautiful."

I've one sister and a brother. My sister is a dentist. She is younger than me by 2 years but had already finished her bachelor's degree. She was always there for me to lessen my anxiety attacks. We share a room but not beds. Her bed lies opposite to mine.

"Quiet. Love isn't my thing. And you know I'm anxious here. You dare to mock me?" I unknowingly threw her blanket out of bed and went downstairs.  I get angry easily. It's not that I didn't try but I just can't control.
Say now, who would want a angry bird?

"You ready? Oh my...my. You looking beautiful." As soon as my mom saw me she complimented on me.

"Mom, I'm a boy! Stop telling me beautiful." I growled. "Bye."

"Hey, no breakfast? You will be hungry." Mom shouted.

"Mom." I sighed.

"They are in liquids. I know you are anxious and can't take solid so, your breakfast are liquids." Mom pointed to smoothie.

My mom is always supportive. Even when I failed my medical examination she tried so much to uplift my mood and restart my studies. She was there like forever protecting me and supporting me in my life. So,to keep mom's heart, I just drank a glass and headed to hospital.

All the way, I was trembling, sweating, licking my lips time and often as they get dried up, trying to recall what should I be doing... my mind was busying with all the uncertainty making me more anxious.

I just hoped and prayed that my antianxiety drugs will work on my duty hour,so I won't be having any troubles.

I parked my scooter at the hospital's parking area but it took me so much courage and time to get up from my seat and head into hospital.

Oh, how I wish I just want to run back to parking area and start the engine. Then drive back home. I got nauseous. My feet were the heaviest one. I start seeing blurr. I knew I should sit somewhere and control myself. How I hated this situation! I hate anxiety. I hate medicine. I even don't know why I took medical field, maybe to cure myself first?

Then, Finally I took my first step into hospital....