Destiny🥰

2. POSTING

As soon as I step into hospital hall 🏨, the smells of phenol overloaded my nostrils. It's covid phase and I had 2 masks on 😷but in vain, the scent was so strong to invade my sense organ. It made me more nauseous🥴. My instinct had been urging me to rush to bathroom but my feet, they were stuck due to anxiety.
"Hello DD. How are you?"
I looked to the side sound was produced. RELIEF..😤 He was one of colleagues.
"Hello there." I smiled and tried to control my anxiety.
"Where's our posting?" He questioned.
"Oh, I was told psychiatry."
"OK let's go. Have another friend of ours arrived yet?"
"Huh?😳 I..I don't know. I just arrived. Shall we wait? Or just go? Or..."
I was sweating profusely and obviously was uttering so much.
He patted on my shoulder and told me to calm and call the other.
I smiled uneasily and tried dialling.
"The number You've dialled is busy, please try again."
Smile again. This time awkward.
"Let's go Opd (out patient department) Then wait him there." Jack suggested.
I nodded and followed him. We went upstairs and around the corner was psychiatry Opd. We were amused to see our other friend outside Opd. As we exchanged hellos, we went inside and was terrified to see all opd room empty. Were we late? Like it's just 8:10am. Could it be the teacher already went to clinical rounds? Did we miss morning bliss? Will we be scolded? My mind can't stop overflowing thoughts. Anxiety attack were on edge. Eyes were in search of bathroom. I need to calm down. But how? Just then, one of the staff in psychiatry opd saw us and asked about us. We told that we are interns and today is our first day. She smiled and told us to go to ward in upstairs. We hurriedly went upstairs but among those doors which one was psychiatric ward we were confused. Two of friend started blaming each other. As if it wasn't their mistake. But I took courage and asked a Guard Dai (senior brother) if he can show us the way to psychiatry ward. He smiled and unchained the door. "Inside you go. Don't worry, Sir hasn't arrived. He comes at 8:30am. May be there are other senior. I mean resident doctors."
I smiled and thanked him. We went inside. There were medical staffs (nurses, resident doctors) chatting and laughing. "Oh, what a lively ward." Was all I could think. We went near the desk. We were interrogated by one of the senior dai. (Resident Dr.) He was telling what a intern should be doing. Due to my anxiety attack it was really hard for me to concentrate to his words. So, I tried looking other's activities too. Just then my heart skipped a beat. It raced! Wow. I tried so hard not to look at him but in vain. My instincts were telling me he is the one. I tried consoling my heart that you don't know him. What if he's married? Or what if he have a girlfriend? You have passed your exam after so many attempts and you think you will be accepted if he knows who really you are? You just are an intern who finally passed finals. You have lot of defects. You aren't so beautiful. NAH! Stop dreaming about him.
But heart, it won't listen. Just forgot it's rhythm and start palpating as if the moment was party time. Idiot.

I tried to control eyes not to steal glance. As if it obeys😒
Just then, HoD sir came and welcomed us. Then we went for round. I tried so hard to control my blushing, my racing heartbeat and most of all these stupid smiles. Thank God, it was pandemic phase and masks were on or else they would have asked me thousands of questions because of my stupid smile.😃
As our round ended, Sir turned towards senior dai and didi. "Who is on Opd today?" He questioned.
"Us." Replied my crush.
"OK, The ward group need to handle intern for today. Help them with works." He told didi.
Then he looked to us and smiled. "They will be helping you but before that we will have short orientation and introduction so let's go." Showed us towards the door with heavy chain. Guard dai unchained door letting us out and we followed Sir to this small psychiatry study room.
We were asked our name, hometown, batch and told only a person for 5 days can attend duty as it's covid time. And we had to decide who would come to duty for 1st 5 days. I raised hand. I didn't want to miss the chance to know more about my crush. Mention not, my brain couldn't even think as my heart was super fast. Sir then happily assigned me work and told me work under didi (senior sister resident Dr.) for today. Then only the heart calm down comforting itself that it can get glimpse of crush within a day. After that we went our ways. I went to Ward again where I was taught about file work. I had to make discharge, revise cardex. I did in a flash and then went studying the patient's file. My first day was going okay even though I had no glimpse of him. It was around 4 pm and didi said if I was to stay night then had to ask 3rd year resident dai. "OK I will wait for him." And 5 min. Later came my crush with a smile on his face talking with another dai. He stopped and asked why I was still there. My heart skipped. I was like cry baby. 😢 As his voice was so stressed as if they were scolds. I couldn't utter any words. He told that I was of no use if I don't attend Opd and my day was ruined because I didn't attend Opd. I tried to clarify but he won't listen. Then I called didi and told her what should I be doing? She said just to tell him that Sir had assigned you to me for today and from tomorrow you will attend Opd after rounds. After phone cut, I looked around but my crush left already. I rushed to find him. Caught him in staircase. "Dai, Sorry! I was assigned to didi by Sir so I didn't know anything. I was with her the whole day. It's my first day and I don't mean to hurt you either. Sorry forgive me for my mistakes." I spoke all in one. He just waved and smiled "it's okay, don't say sorry. You can go home."

I went back happily to ward and with a sign of relief I collected my bag and went to check out.

Aah! What a day...
I don't know. Should I be happy because I talked with him or should I be unhappy because I got scolded??
😄😉