Destiny🥰

3. 5-day Posting

Next day I woke up refreshed. A smile just showed up as I got myself refreshed. "Seems like something is fishy", my sister uttered as she looked at griny me. "Just go to sleep." I threw a pillow to her. She grabbed it. "You think I look good in this?" I questioned her. She hugged me from back and looked at the mirror, from top to bottom She scanned me. "Change hair style." Just then mummy called from downstairs and we hurriedly back to kitchen. "Here's your smoothies" She handed me a glass. I picked up an apple and drank my glass. "Mom, can I have a bread too?" Awkward smile.  "Oh, oh yeah! Sure..I'll..I'll just bring it." Mummy was astonishing. Sometimes she is when things like this unexpected happens. But she never rejects anything. That's how super my mom is. After breakfast, I bid goodbye and drove to hospital.

Phenol again. As soon as I step this damn hospital door I feel nauseous. I tried controlling it. I remembered my crush. I distracted myself with the self conversation. Will I see him today? Or even chat? Or will I be scolded today too? I entered the iron gate. He was there on nurse station, all alone, chewing gum and no expression above all no mask at all in this pandemic. Who does he think of himself? Resistant to virus or the vaccine itself.

Argh! I start getting anxious all at once. No, he hasn't looked to me. It's just him supporting himself on the station and my palpitation just hit. My throat went dry. Oh No! I wish I won't sweat. As I enter into station, he looked upto me. I smiled. 🙂 No response! Another palpitation for rejection. Oh wait. Haha how could he see me smiling with my mask on? Idiot me! I smiled again with mask for my dumbness. Haha.😄
"Goodmorning dai." I greeted him.
"Goodmorning. You came early today", he responded.
"Huh? It's 8o'clock already." I reached out to look for others but found none.
"I mean it's 2nd day today so I don't know when to come. Normally when does it start?" I looked towards him.
"When sir arrives " he chuckled as he answered.
Like seriously, I know it starts when sir arrives but that wasn't my question. My question was at what time does it normally start? But I was left speechless. I don't think it's right to question him again. I mean I feel like quarrelling and I don't want that. He is my crush! Oh, how could I do that. My bad. I got tempered. I feel like shouting to him and questioning him again. Thank god. Just then, another dai stepped in. One of them was acting as  surprised to see me early. I responded with a smile. "You are active." He quoted. I smiled. Then Didi came in. And last one to enter was our teachers. Ward round started thereafter. Residents were asked questions. I was mumbling to myself to some of the questions. But after the round ended I was advised by Anil dai not to mumble alone if I knew the answers. I just smiled and asked for my forgiveness. Then I questioned my crush where should I be in? Opd or ward? He looked at Anil dai and chuckled. I got angry again. I mean my temper just shoot up. "Dai?" I called again as they were going out of iron gate.  He looked back and said, "Finish typing discharge and then go to opd."
I turned to computer desk to see any discharge file and looked to them but they vanished within a second. I went to computer desk but found no discharge file. Then asked sister if there is any. But they rudely said," Didn't you too go for round and why ask us? You should know." I went a step and looked every files if it was discharged but none of them were, so I went straight to Opd. I thought he would be there. My crush. But, Nope! I stayed with didi. Later at afternoon I found he went away home. Dull day went away somehow.

Next morning, I.e 3rd day I lazily climbed the staircase because I knew sir won't be there nor my crush would be. I found my crush was a carefree man. He does his work and just walks away. He was nominated as a rude one who just answers and get away. I realised I have no any luck on him. Yet, it's the matter of heart and it barely listens to any other. So, I dragged myself to ward for morning round. To be honest I was no more interested in talking with him. But as soon as the round was over he came to me and said," After you finish discharge typing come to opd." I lazily said "Yes". They went their way while I paved mine to computer desk. 3 discharge files! Done for the day. I started working on it. After I finished I I formed sisters and went straight to Opd.
"Intern in this room with Anil sir" receptionist didi said.
I went to Anil dai's opd room. He was examining the patient of anxiety. So, I just sat beside him and listened. After the prescribed medication the patient was counselled and was sent. Then he turned to me to ask when did I arrived. I smiled. Then I heard receptionist didi calling the patient name for another opd room. I signalled Anil dai that I will be in another room and went inside before the patient. But I didn't went beside my crush rather I stood infront of him. I watched him doing his work. Oh. WOW! 1 minute and done?
All he did was ... asked why the patient is here and asked if the symptoms are present or not like he mentioned. If yes then done! Medication prescribed and ask them to re visit after months or in case of emergency.
I was astonished. I really got impressed.  I went to Anil dai's room again and disturbed the studious boy. He asked me what was the difference between two dai on performing check up. I smiled. I said, " within the time you finish one patient he would finish May be 5? Or even more patient." He laughed. Hearing our noise, my crush entered into our opd and questioned Anil dai if he had read what he had been assigned for. But Anil dai diverted the topic. To this diversion, he replied" I don't care, why you laughed or he did but I need answers when I asked you. If not then you know the consequence." He raised his eyebrows and signalled to read. In vain Anil dai started studying while I was asked for the reason of laugh by him. I couldn't utter anything. All I could do and hear is palpating heart. Anxiety hits again.
While I was struggling with my anxiety our receptionist didi came in and started touching my crush. 😢
Not only anxiety patient, I'm an overthinker too. Seeing this scene, my mind got its job to overthink.  Is she his crush? Or lover? Or partner? Or what else there could be? Is he already married? Or do they know who his girlfriend is? Or is he just like those people like roaming around and flirting? What else? I got anxious. I have  NO CHANCE at all. I got up from my seat and asked for leave beforehand for breaktime. Then I went away without asking or clarifying myself.
I came back early to opd after break thinking I could ask him anything about him. But my bad he came to opd at 3 pm. 1 more hour and he would be gone. He did his job. Thank god that day was least patient day so we had some chitchat. I even managed to tease him telling him if he could basket the piece of paper into dustbin then he will be loved by his girlfriend or wife whoever he has. To that he replied "ok if I basket it there then bring me chocolate."
"Why would I?"
"Then why would I have to basket?"
"I give chocolate to mine only. So.."
"I don't have anyone. So.."

A Ray of hope with a brightest smile🙂 arose within.
I got a chance. YES!!!✊

Thereafter the 2 days posting went just making every opportunity to get a glimpse of his.🧐 Making chances to talk to him, tease him😝🤪 and know him more.
The more I see him, the more I longed for him. 😘