Destiny🥰

He's back.😱

5 more days to go for festival to finish. It is the greatest festival in my country but to me, I just counted days to pass by.
It was too hard to stay without contact so I thought of lies to call him again. I just called him on 3rd day. My heart started pounding so loud. My respiratory became dense. I felt like I'm dying. I immediately cut the call, gathered my breathing and heart rate to normal. But as he called back I went blank. I just didn't know what should I tell. I couldn't received the call in that state. It nearly took me 10 mins. to calm myself down and I called back. This time I cheerfully questioned him.

I asked him where he is at that time?

He answered at his home preparing for festival.  He is damn tired because of all the works during festival and right now he's resting.

I angrily asked him," who am I to you?"

Him: An intern🤷

Me : Just an intern? 🙄

Him: ok, what do you want to be apart from          intern?

Me: If I'm just an intern then why did you talk to me? I mean we always, almost always chat with other, don't  we?

Him: Yes, it's because you call me.

Me: If I don't call then won't you dare to call me?

Him: Hmm..yeah. maybe! Because I don't have anything to talk about.

Me: OK, then bye bye. Enjoy festival.

I cut off the call in anger.
My anger is the worst.  They bring tears with them. So much of overthinkings. So much of negative thoughts.

I threw my phone on the bed and went to bring the bottle of water.  I was feeling so depressed. I felt stupid. I even don't know when the tears rolled down.
After two bouts of water he called me back.
I received it.

Me: Yes, hello. What do you need now?

Him: (laughingly 😄) What is it you want? I don't know how to talk. Are you angry with me?

Me: No, you're right.  Actually it's me. I get angry so easily. I'm sorry. I got angry.

Him: It's okay. But can you tell me what is it troubling you?

Me: No, nothing. It's okay. I'm fine.

Him: Now, you're making me angry 😠 . You want me to put the phone off or will you tell me what's wrong with you.

Me:  Oh it's nothing. I just have infatuation towards you. But it's okay. The behaviour you showed towards me one day will eventually let me detach from you. Sorry to trouble you. I will try distancing from you.

Him: Sorry for what? Why is that wrong even? Like you like me, isn't it? What's wrong in liking me? It's okay. You don't have to be sorry for liking me.

Me: No, No.... I don't want to trouble you anymore. This infatuation eventually will subside.  Don't worry.

Him: It's okay, I'm telling you that you can like me.

Me: No, why to take risk? Today if this infatuation flourish then I will start loving you, that means we will be in relationship, be couples, date, have fun together, try cherishing each other.... After all why do these things if we are to break up and not marry? I want to cherish these moments with the very person I marry.
I think I don't have time to be a fling or get a fling for myself.  I just want a serious relationship with whom I finally will settle down.
So, it's ok. I will control my emotions.
And ah! Thank you for listening to me.

Him: Oh ok. So, be it! Continue your infatuation.  Let me know if I can do anything. (Laughs)😅

Me: What is with that laugh? You aren't even serious.  I'm telling you all these and you don't respond at all.

Him: What? What do you tell me?

Me: Are you deaf? I'm asking you question can you answer?

Him: Question? What was the question?

Me: oiiii.... leave it, you don't like me. I'm cutting off.

As soon as I was about to cut off the call he answered me YES!

I jumped on my bed. Oh man! Oh my , oh my god!! He said Yes. Cloud nine. I'm on cloud nine. Oh, everything seemed so cheerful. 
Just then my mom called me downstairs.  I rushed towards her.

Sister: Is everything okay? You seem so happiest.

Me: Yes, I'm happy because I got leave for festival.

I hid the main factor for my happiness.
The whole day was so happy and cheerful that I couldn't explain in words.
The festival came. I got dressed in best attire and clicked photo. I send those pictures to him. In reply I got none. Argh! My anger rose again. Here I'm being on cloud nine every single seconds and there he is acting like nothing has happened.
Calming my nerves I asked for his photos, to which he replied he didn't clicked any.

Save me! Save me from this unromantic idiot.
I forced him to click one for me. Then after a split of seconds he send me his selfie with caption:
"There you are. Now don't ask for another one ok."

Me: When will be back?

Him: tomorrow

Me: Duty?

Him: Day after tomorrow.

Me: let's meet then.👫

Him: when?

Me: Today😮‍💨😤

Him: Oh I told you I will come tomorrow.  I will meet you day after tomorrow ok? it will be after my duty is over. Ok?

Argh! Ahhhhhhhhhh...... Is he pretending or is he really this unromantic boy?
Can somebody calm me down?  He's getting on my nerves.
I waited. All I can do was wait for this idiot.  I miss him so so much. But I didn't dare to tell him.
And he's back after 2 days. I mean our duty starts.....