Destiny🥰

4. Posting round

My 5-days in Psychiatry department was finished and one of my colleague joined after. Sometimes I grabbed the opportunity to go to opd when my colleague asked for help. Then, 15 days went within a blink of eye. We were posted in dermatology department. There also 5-days rule as the covid didn't subside. The case has been increasing every single day as lockdown was opened. I was first one to start. Every alternative day I tried to get glimpse of his making silliest excuses. But the day of posting ended with vain. Then the lockdown happened. For 10 days we were restricted to go on posting as per hospital administration. I thought I won't miss him if I don't see him or anything that reminds me him isn't with me. So, I utilised all these 10 golden days for my growth. I exercised every morning, studied for an hour or two, I helped mom in kitchen but still it felt so lonely without his voice. So, I would find an excuse to call him and record his voice. For a day or two his record would work but after that....??? lonely again! I wished to go back to hospital. It was the great positivity in my life. For a person, who feared new people, new environment and had to take medicine just to calm down anxiety, it indeed was a positive vibe, positive growth. And I was loving it. More than that I'm loving him as I wait my return to hospital. After 15 days medicine department called in for us. I was excited😉 (for him too of course😅). Well ironed clothes, all fully equipped I drove myself to hospital at sharp 7:30 and reached at 8am. Tropical ward, Medicine Opd, Nephro ward, Cardiac care unit (CCU) we were divided into different groups. I was posted in CCU along with a girl who was junior to me. But it didn't matter because we were all here to learn and this internship time is the crucial time for every doctors to be.
We went in after sanitisation and we were guided by our resident brothers. No matter how much I tried I couldn't get glimpse of my crush during 1 week of my CCU posting. We were heavily working, learning and helping our seniors. But then on the last day. I was on computer making discharge of 2 patients and I heard someone say,"which bed?" I just ignored the sound as I was busy typing the discharge. One of the sister(nurse) assisted him. After the short inquiry to the patient I was given to review as well as renew the patient's file. Without looking away from computer screen, I just said,"Okay, I will do after this file." And the work wrapped up after 1 hour. I asked for the file to be renewed then realised it was consulted by psychiatrydepartment. I asked sister who wrote the medicine after inquiry. Hearing his name from sister's mouth really disappointed me as I missed the chance to see him. With a heavy heart, I went home after my posting is over.
On 8th day of posting I was posted on Opd. Thank God! Medicine Opd lies in the same floor of Psychiatry Opd. I might get glimpse. Finger crossed!🤞😇
But my bad, my opd days were during the festival time so he had gone home. Somehow I was in touch with him asking few questions in social media. So, I thought I would do the same. Really, missed him alot in those medicine opd days. Every lunch break would be a reason to see him. But now the hospital seems like just a haunted building, it didn't excite me at all to be in hospital. How I wished the festival ends so soon. But time and tides wait for none. Let the time flow. I just enjoyed missing him. Aah.. how can I not tease him and sleep at night? So, I find a way to talk to him as soon as I see him online. Small talk really did mattered to me. Afterall he was my crush. My handsome. My antianxiety. Festival, when will it end? 5 more days to go.
Don't you think 5 days is much more to miss someone u desired?🙈