Roland
Years had passed. I had to do what was best for Lorraine. My cancer was spreading even though I was going through chemotherapy. When that didn't work, we tried radiation. The whole process and treatment took a lot out of me. I didn't have the heart to have the woman I love to have to go through it with me. I wanted her to remember me as the man that I was. I chose to leave. To leave my family and the woman I loved most. When Dr. Scott told me that one day, I might have a chance, a very slim chance to survive but with risk. I took it. He told me it was a 50/50 meaning I might not survive the treatment itself. I wanted to go through with it and if there was a chance that I could make it. I would take it. I decided not to tell Lorraine. I knew the person that she was and she would want to be by my side. But... I couldn't.
So many nights I almost broke down, picked up my phone. I just wanted to hear her voice. All I could do was buy all the magazines with her on the cover or being interviewed. I have missed her and I wanted so much to hold my children.
When Dr. Scott told me I was cancer free just 6 months ago, I couldn't be happier. I was about to jump on the plane and surprise Lorraine and I stopped myself. The reason? I have to know she wanted me back. It's been over four years now and Joshua is almost 5 by now.
I decided to wait here in our Paris home for my wife. Inside my heart I have always known this was where we had our best memories and loved hard.
I was right.
"Roland..."
I look at her with eyes still half closed next to me. She doesn't even look a day older than when we first met.
"Yes babygirl?" I stroked her temple softly.
"Where the fuck have you been?"
I chuckled.
"Are you hungry? You must have a hangover babygirl."
A huge smile forms on her beautiful face. This is the thing about Lorraine... with her delicate features, her lips are just out of place. Not in a bad way but just luscious.
"I'm starving Chef Roland."
She jumps up all of a sudden with eyes wide open.
"What the fuck. Who are you? What are you doing here?"
I must say I'm quite confused at the moment.
"What do you mean babygirl? I'm your husband and I'm here because you are here."
She looks confused for a second and she places her palms over her eyes.
"Stop this. Stop this dream. I don't like it. I don't want it. Wake up Lorraine. Wake up NOW.'
I am still watching her and I'm quite amused.
"My wild child.. are you still drunk?"
"You are a dream. You are not real. No.. you are real.. you are here with me. You are here."
Pain struck my heart. I cannot imagine what I have put her through.
I pull her into my arms and at this moment... I don't ever want to let her go.
"My wild child... I'm so sorry. So sorry for all the pain that I have caused you. Please forgive me. I love you. I love you so much."
I begin to kiss her. Her temple.. her cheeks... the tip of her nose... her lips. Those lips.
She pushes me away.
"Stop... NO. Stop.. NO..."
I can taste her tears... she is crying and it hurts. Her tears... is more painful than anything. Nothing can ever compare to the pain that I can feel knowing the pain she had to go through.
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Lorraine's Saga (Part III to Wild Child)
RomanceLorraine Fowler is now thirty and she is a mother of two. She has a son named Joshua whom is 2 and a baby girl Kaia whom is 8 months old. She has taken over Roland Harris's cosmetic business and made it even bigger. She has created a new cosmet...