A Week in Italy (itapan)

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Friday

The next morning, I woke up with an extreme headache. My alarm went off and it was around seven in the morning. I looked around and saw that Feli was also in the bed with me. My eyes widened and I covered my mouth horrified. "Get up!!!!" I shouted. I shook him awake and he looked to me worried. "What happened?" He asked confused. "Did we... do something?" I asked horrified. His eyes widened and he bolted upward. "No!!! It's not like that I promise! I was just too tired to make the bed on the couch.... and a little drunk"

My face began to soften and I hid my face in the palm of my hands. God.... I really thought we had sex... for a moment. "Actually..... you recorded last night...." he spoke. My eyes widened and he looked very tired. "What?" I asked confused. "Uh..... if I remember, it was something about capturing everything?.... I forget some of last night too. Well... at least I didn't forget everything" he spoke with a smirk.

I looked to my camera on the side table and quickly grabbed it. "I will shower first while you look at that.... then you can remember. Afterwards I suppose..... I'll take you to the airport....." he spoke sort of sadly. He stood up and began to get clothes together to shower. I watched as he walked into the bathroom slowly and quietly. I then looked to the camera and quickly went through the memory. The last video there was about an hour long, but I knew I was not going to watch all of it right now.

As I was about to hit the play button , I tried to think of maybe I shouldn't.  "I'm watching it" I whispered. I then hit the play button and started to watch the video.

"Are you ready!" I slurred. I watched through my camera as my drunk self began to back away from the camera and towards Feli. I grabbed the wii controller for just dance and I looked at Feli calmly. It seemed normal for the most part. "Are you ready to do this?" Feli asked. I held myself closely and began to watch my drunken self slowly do a nod. "Yes! I have the Japanese spirit!" I shouted. I began to feel sick watching this video at how silly I was being. No.... I have never acted this way before. It is so embarrassing.

The music began to start up and Feli and I began to dance to this song. I think it was called "take on me?" It was an American song for sure. In the video we both began to dance harder and I wanted to scream. I quickly turned off the video and placed my camera on the shelf. "I am definitely deleting that when I get home" I whispered to myself.

The door to the bathroom opened up and Feli walked out with a towel around his waist. "Oh my! I'm so sorry! I did not mean to look!" I said nervously. I tried to grab the blanket to cover my face but it had fell off of the bed. "It is fine... we are both guys after all" he laughed. I stopped freaking out and looked to him quietly. "What is it?" He asked. I began to part my lips and I had no idea what to say. "Nothing.... I think I am going to miss you" I said. His face softened up and it was like reality hit him in the face really hard. "Ahhh... me too..." He said softly.

I stood up from the bed and quickly walked to my luggage to get some clothes. "I'm going to take a shower real quick" I spoke. He nodded and I walked into the bathroom slowly. I began to take my clothes off and I looked to myself in the mirror. "You are being ridiculous kiku! You leave today" I whispered to myself. I began to turn on the shower and it was like I felt as if I wanted to just stay here longer. But I couldn't, it wasn't just a money issue either, the idea of staying was insane.

I felt the hot water on my back and it made me shiver. This is not making me feel as good as I want it to.

When I got out of the shower, I noticed how Feli kept watching me. "Did you watch the whole thing?" He asked. I looked to him with a lifted eyebrow and slowly shook my head. "Ahhh... well that sucks" he said quietly. "What does?" I asked. He began to laugh a funny way, as if he was nervous. Soon shaking his head right after "it is nothing..... but were you all ready to head to the airport?" He asked.

His face softened and he looked troubled. I wanted to ask why but I was not sure if butting into his business was a smart idea. "Yes, can you help me take my things to the car?" I asked. Feli nodded his head and began to slowly grab my things by the doorway. As he did that, I looked out the window one last time and felt really sad. I had an amazing time here in Italy, but I think it was time for me to go back home to Japan.

"Just lock the door behind you, and I'll be in the car" Feli said with a smile. I grabbed some things in my hand and looked back into his apartment. I wanted to burn this smell into my brain. I never wanted to forget what his apartment looked like or how I felt being in it. I smiled once more and tilted my head to the side. "Goodbye forever..." I said quietly. I locked the door behind me and began to carry my things towards feliciano's car. I knew he had been already waiting for me so I did not want to keep him waiting any longer.