REMEMBER (l.s)

scared

TW : mention of throwing up, having a panic attack, and death (for the mention of death, don't worry though it does not deal with them and it is not about anyone in this story. it is used to explain something and if you keep reading you'll see exactly what that is. if you are still unsure of whether or not to keep reading please just reach out to me and ask me what it's about! I will gladly tell you. Happy reading!)

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There they were.. standing in the same exact spot they were standing in as kids. It's funny to think that back then they had no idea where they would be now.

They had no idea what was ahead of them. No idea that whatever was happening now was going to be one of the most confusing and horrible things in their life.

Sure the idea of love is confusing and scary. The idea of love, whatever that may be, is like your floating.. or falling.

In my opinion if it feels like you're floating in thin air, like nothing can break your fall.. it's amazing. It's as if everything in the world has stopped working and it's just you and them. 

In the world.

In" love."

Nothing else matters.

And if you're falling, well that's the scariest. If you're falling then you are truly and deeply in love with that person. If you're falling.. you'll know you are in that split second of meeting their eyes for the first time.

Butterflies swarm around, fluttering like crazy at the mere sight of them. 

So.. if you're falling, it's terrifying. You realize that you aren't floating anymore. You're falling into something greater than you. 

You're falling in love.

The funny thing with Louis and Harry is that they were never floating. The two year old who met that newborn knew that even then he was falling, when he didn't even know what it meant.

You don't have to know either. You get this feeling that.. is indescribable. No words in any dictionary will be able to tell you the answer to why you're falling. No sentences will be long enough to tell that person you're falling.

So that's why people just say those five words. The five words that mean you fell. You fell into something you can't escape. An abyss.

'I'm in love with you.'

And yeah, who wouldn't want to hear those words.

Louis wants to hear them come out of Harrys mouth after three years of never saying it once. After three years of having his person taken away from him.

Three years of having no one to hold on to. No one to fall with.

But what if he can't? Surely he can.. they are engaged! Though he can't.. and it's killing him inside.

He can't tell Harry he's in love with him. In love with how his curls fall in front of his eyes, in love with how his cheeks turn this shade of pink that he only gets around the person he loves. 

Louis can't tell Harry anything. It might hurt Harry.

So all he can pray and hope for is that Harry finally remembers. Remembers every little memory they've had together. Every little moment they've ever shared. Every last kiss.. and every new one.

Because now they are standing in the same exact spot Louis and Harry were together, already fallen. They are in the same exact spot as they were before they entered. Although for a different reason.