You are my FLAME

He and I against the world

Fast forward 5 years

Vian's POV

It was the last day of our tour. It felt good to be home after several months of travel. This year's tour was a success and everyone was happy how all the places were fully booked. We added extra shows in some venues since the tickets were sold in the blink of an eye.

It was incredible but at the same time terrifying how people shower us with their love. Some days I wanted to run away and hide from all the attention like today.

Everyone was busy backstage running here and there to make sure everything was perfect since it was our last show of the year. The makeup artist was touching up my makeup, and someone was checking whether my mic was working properly. But I was in a daze. My mind refused to register anything that was happening around me.

I received news that morning that my grandmother had passed away. I was devastated and broken after hearing the news, but I didn't let my tears fall, not even a single drop.

I wanted to look like I was strong but also I didn't think I deserve to cry. I should have been there for her. The makeup artist was touching up my makeup, and someone was checking whether my mic was working properly. Even now I couldn't go to her. Instead, I was getting ready to entertain people. I should run to her...to my family without thinking about anything. They needed me now as much as I needed them but I was wearing a fancy dress, covering my tired face with makeup, and looking at the mirror in front of me trying to find myself in the person it reflects.

I was devastated and broken after hearing the news, but I didn't let my tears fall, not even a single drop. Because that was not me, I couldn't recognize myself. I didn't know who I. Everything was a blur. Thousands of thoughts swirled in my mind and I was overwhelmed with lots of emotions and uncertainty. I didn't even know what I was going to do next.

"Hey man, you ok?" Jay asked me standing behind my rolling chair looking at me through the mirror.

There he was, my best friend. I started to miss him because there is no way he leaves me alone when I am like this.

He turned my seat towards him which made me look down to hide my face. It was not like he didn't know because he was one of the persons in this world who can say what I was thinking and feeling just by one look at my face. I just didn't want to make him upset before the show. We feel each other like we are one person, that's how close we are. He cries with me when I cry and I am glad at least I got him.

He bent down to my face level and slowly wiped the tear that escaped from my eye. I didn't realize I was crying until then.

He hugged me tightly holding my head over his chest. He was asking me to let it all out. That's who Jay was, he doesn't give a damn about a thing more than my well being. But I can't, not right now. Not when I have thousands of people waiting for me to come on stage and make them happy.

I pushed him away slowly which made him frown. I gave him a reassuring smile that I was ok. It was hard but biting my tongue helped a little.

He tried to hug me again but thankfully the staff informed us that it's time. We lined up behind the stage and did our group chant, like we always did before the show.

On stage, the first thing my eyes did was to search for her...Ava.I know I won't find her but it became a habit to me searching for her everywhere in the crowd and everyone.

Ava, she was my best friend. Me, Jay and her, we used to go to school together. She was everything for us. She was sick for a while, but I couldn't stay with her because of my work. She came into our lives like a rainbow, painting colors in a cloudy grey life of ours. But I ruined everything, I pushed her away. I lost her because of my stupidity.