You are my FLAME

Our very first moment.

My heart wants me to stay.

My mind pushes me away.

Which one shall I listen to?

This confusion overwhelms me.

To be by your side daily,

To retrieve my stolen heart,

Shall I trace your footstep or

Wane in sleeplessness?

I want to fill this gap.

If I come close, allow me.

All I need is half a second of proximity.

One side shyness nudges me,

One side desire urges me deeply,

This dilemma dices me anew.

How long should I be patient,

With this yearning so persistent?

A thousand dawns can come into our life.

But this is our very first moment.

I forgot to breathe for the first time in my life. My heart skipped a beat. Time stopped. Everything and everyone around us faded away. I was afraid to blink thinking that he would disappear right in front of my eyes. I didn't want to escape that limbo...ever. There was no way that it could be real. It must be a dream... that's what I thought.

I saw him walking towards me, and I felt my heart wanted to reach him jumping out of my cheat beating so fast making me so anxious and also excited. He was wearing his school uniform, nothing fancy, Just a white shirt with black pants and a black blazer with our school logo on the left side of his chest. He left the top two buttons of his shirt open showing his bare-toned chest. His walk was careless wearing his black sneakers carrying his shoulder bag. His dark black hair was disheveled due to the breeze and he combed it with his hand making it look messy. He must have eaten something when he was on that tour to get this... unearthly glow. It's that or something is wrong with me. It was like looking at him for the first time again.

There was this mischievous smile dangling on the corner of his lips when he saw us and I could see his Adam's apple bobbing up and down when he talked to Jay. He snaked his right arm around Jay's neck giving him a bro hug. I saw a new red bracelet on his hand along with the old silver one he was wearing all these years.

All the while, his grey eyes never left mine. He was looking at me even when he hugged Jay giving me chills all over my body. It was like he embraced me already even though he hasn't even come near me yet. They both came towards me with their hands on each other's shoulders.

"Hey Aves," Vian greeted me with his deep voice churning my insides. It took me a few seconds to realize that it was all real.

"Hey V," I greeted him back composing myself blinking my eyes a couple of times. I practically jumped at him hugging him so tight. I missed him so much, and I was so excited to see him. Back to best-friend mode.

We walked to the class side by side with Vian on my left and Jay on my right. It was always like this. They never changed sides. Jay's hand was hanging around my shoulder and Vian's hand was resting on my head as we headed to the class talking about our vacation. That's the downside of hanging with two boys when you are short, you become their hand-rest from time to time.

We were walking to my locker when we heard that voice which we never wanted to hear for the rest of our lives.

"Here come the freaks." Jackson sang while laughing along with his idiotic friends surrounding him. His girlfriend Naina was in his arms looking at us with a mocking look. He and his friends never changed. This bullying has been going as long as I can remember since I got transferred. It got worse when Jay and V stopped fighting for me because I asked them not to get in trouble with those morons. They were not just worth going to the Principal's office almost every day.