Hurt {Clifford}

The Hole In My Chest is Gaping With Unhappiness

 

Journal entry 4

I woke up today with a hole in my chest.

I could feel the gaping black abyss just above where my heart is.

Yesterday I talked to her.

We laughed and joked as we usually did and I said to her, "Why did we ever stop this?"

 She look straight at me and said, "I don't know, but I really miss it."

And then I apologized, grew a pair and said," I really like you, well I always have liked you but, like, when you asked me I was surprised and like scared, I didn't know what to do. I just choked I guess."

She looked at me like I was the only person in her world and I felt happy for the first time that week.

She said yes.

We kissed a couple of times, I took her to a movie later that night but when I got home I couldn't help but wonder how we were going to break up.

Would I cheat on her? Would she cheat on me? Would we get into a major fight?

I'm scared now, I don't want to hurt her.

But I do wonder, how will I break her?       

This is stupid.

I need to stop.

I sound like some kid on tumblr, "How will i break this girl!?11?"

I won't break her, i'll kill her.