Milan
Everyone left the room and I stood by the door looking around the room, at Bashar's clothes and stuff all over trying to avoid him.
"Come here" he motioned for me to come on the bed.
I dropped my bag and got up next to him, he started at me and I looked away.
"Milan I'm not with Aaliyah"
"Hmm okay" I smiled and looked over at him
"You don't believe me? I swear bro I'm not with her"
I knew he was telling the truth but I wish I knew the truth yesterday before I had sex with Brent.
Before I even let him kiss me, now I got feelings for Brent but I love Bashar more than life.
I nodded and smiled at him and he smiled back .
" I missed you like crazy Mil, I'm sorry bout everything"
"Maybe we need a break like I need a break you know, a chance to enjoy my own company and be by myself"
He shook his head and looked away and to the wall
"You with him, I know and I could tell from the time you walked in the door. Body language, wanting to move and whatever like I know you fuckin him and I'm not mad cause that's my fault."
I shook my head and stood up, closed the door
"Bashar I deadass thought you was with Aaliyah so I went with Brent, both times I came she was there and it just made sense and I saw you kiss her but I'm sorry about this, I'm deadass soooo sorry" he just shook his head and looked down at his feet.
"I called you and you didn't give me the chance to speak, I could've explained but you wasn't tryna listen" I just couldn't look at him, I felt so mad and I didn't know what to do.
"I'm not gonna wanna force you to stay here or live in the apartment, it's cool if you wanna live by yourself now or with Brent. Maybe I gotta let you go cause if God wants us to be together, it'll happen but I'm letting you go do your own shit, I'm not gonna hold you back here" my heart hurt and I couldn't speak, I walked over to him.
"I can't do that, I..."
"Let's just be friend for now Ight, you can come over and see me and talk to me and call" I just scratched my eyebrows and could not process this.
"If it happens, it happens okay, I don't wanna do this shit either but I gotta do it Ight and just chill, don't cry or anything" I did the opposite and broke down.
"Bae,come on bruh, stop crying" I hugged him laid my head on his shoulder as he rubbed my back.
"I'm sorry"
Maybe it was for the best
My phone started ringing and picked up
"Hello"
"Mil hey, it's Amber listen I'm sorry about my attitude this morning, I didn't mean to I was just shocked and I'm sorry, can you come back I wanna talk to you"
"It's cooI'll see you later ight"
"Okay"
She hung up and he held my hand and kissed it.
"You going now?"
"No" he smiled a little
I helped him lay down on the bed and I got up and laid down on his chest.
"I'm glad you're back tho" I gripped on his shirt and he kissed my forehead, I listened to his heartbeat and he put the tv on BET and music played.
Yung Bleu came on
I felt like the song was for us, I closed my eyes and he rubbed my back and kissed my forehead over and over again.
"I love you" he whispered and I couldn't help but cry, kept my eyes closed.
"I love you too" the song played and I fell asleep on him, I felt so peaceful and I didn't want to leave.
I woke up to the bright lights turning on
"Sorry baby but you gotta take your vitamins" his mom walked in and put his pills next to the bed and brought a glass of water, he sat up a lil bit and took them one by one and drank his water.
I checked my phone
Brent💭: Wya?
Brent💭: Yo what I do? Wya? Answer the phone.
Brent💭: Amber just told me what happened, I'll see you later okay
I shook my head and looked at Bashar as he drink some more water and glimpsed at me.
"What?"
"Nothing, nothing"
His mom left and I got off the bed
"I gotta go now, I'll come see you tomorrow okay" he nodded and laid back down.
I walked over to him and hugged him tight, he kissed my cheek and I groaned.
"I don't like this one bit" he chuckled a little and I smiled.
"Could be a lil challenge for us or something" I rolled my eyes playfully and pulled his braid.
"I got therapy in the morning, So you can come with me if you wanna, I got some feeling back in my toes so we starting therapy a lil early" I grinned and nodded then he squeezed my hand.
"I'm gonna go now okay" he nodded as I picked up my bag and kissed his cheek then left, saying by to his mom. Obasi offered to take me to the apartment and we left.
"He's really glad you're back, he wasn't eating and shit, momma begged him to eat and come outside and all he would talk about was you"
"I had sex with Brent and I didn't know they weren't together"
The car got silent and I shook my head then just looked out the window.
"Everyone messes up Mil so don't beat yourself up about it"
I nodded and gave a faint smile
"He said we should take a break for a little while till we figure shit out and whatever"
"That's good, just chill as friends again like before and maybe that'll be the best thing y'all do right now. It's hard for everyone so just chill and be friends"
We got the the building and we got out the car and headed in,
I got up to our floor and unlocked the door, Obasi left once I was in and I looked around and groaned.
"God just let me know what to do" I threw my bag on the couch and called Brent.
"Hey"
"Hey, you coming over now or later?"
"In a bit I just need to get cleaned up and stuff" he nodded and we started talking like normal and that made me happy, that we didn't make it awkward.
"Ight I gotta go now so I'll be there in like 30"
"Okay"
I showered and changed into my grey sweats and matching hoodie, coat and picked up the keys to my car, left the apartment and went back to Brent's place.
I knocked on the door and it flung open, Amber grinned and pulled me inside.
"I made you dinner babe, I'm really sorry about my attitude this morning." I smiled back and pulled her in for a hug.
"Come on and have a seat, I'll get Chris and we'll eat cause my food isn't going to waste" she ran off and I washed my hands and took my coat off then sat at the table.
"Hey" he had on black jeans and a yellow sonder tshirt.
"Hi" I brought my chair closer to the table so that he could pass by, he did then leaned over and kissed my cheek.
"Milan! It's good to see you again love" John walked in right after Amber and I smiled
"You too, how's everything?"
"Good, good, I'm starving" he sat at the table next the Amber and Brent sat at the head next to me.
"Where'd you go?" He asked as we started passing around the food and I shrugged.
"Obasi picked me up and we went to Bashar's house and we spoke, we're cool now and yeah just chillin, nothing going on" it felt weird saying that and I felt him staring at me as I took some of the salad.
"Ight" that response was dry, sounded rude too and I just ignored it, everyone talked about whatever was going on like usual and Brent brought up going to London for a little while and I looked at him but he didn't once look at me since I told him where I was.
I helped clean up and Amber and I got to talk, about everything, even about Pop but then John came and took her away from me cause they needed to 'sleep' yeah.... I heard some moaning alright and that's not sleeping.
I just sat out in the dark living room and watched tv, Brent went to his room early and honestly I wasn't upset or mad that he felt that way and I completely understood why.
I heard his door open and his foot steps, then they stopped
"Come here" he said in his deep sleepy voice and I went to his room, he closed the door behind him.
"So you went to his house"
"Yeah I did"
"Ight, well we just friends again huh?"
"I said that we're not together, did you not hear that?"
"Oh" he pulled the blunt from behind his ear and lit it up.
He walked over to me and pulled me in closer
"Cause I need to do this" he grabbed my chin and bent down a lil kissing my lips and pulled me closer.
I smiled and he took the lights off
"I'm tired tho so come on" he got on the bed and sat against the headboard while smoking, the dim light from it shined, illuminating his face a little and I took my pants off and got in bed with him.
He had his music playing low in the back .
"Night" I cuddled up next to him as he finished smoking and laid down next to me.
"Night Mil"
