Bashar-
I knew there was no coming back after leaving Milan like that so I settled and it was the one person I couldn't stand but the only person Id tolerate right now, I posted us yesterday and Milan saw, my heart sunk when I saw her in my views and I couldn't believe we were done. All I could remember was her screaming at me, tears in her eyes and pain in her voice.
But I did what I had to do, feel me? And that was what's best for her cause she deserved better, better than me, the world and I missed her so much bro. I cried all night while watching her photos on my phone and It was almost like I was suffocating but she will always be the love of my life.
Aaliyah and I decided to just go out and chill today, I've been down but she ain't know that cause all she cares bout is getting piped and me spending my money. I know eventually Id be fed the fuck up but it was cool for now, cause I was getting pussy but she wasn't Milan.
"I have this appointment tomorrow to do my lashes and nails, can I have some money Daddy?" I pulled out my stack and gave her a couple of hundreds and she kissed my cheek before she stuffed it in her purse.
We went to the mall, ate and then headed back to my crib, she never stayed the night and I didn't care cause I needed my space anyway, she stayed a little while then dipped. I opened my phone and went through my stories and I got to Milan's.
She was in London with Brent and Amber and some other nigga, I watched the video of er and over every other minute trying to analyze it and it hurt me more and more every time. She looked beautiful. Amber sat on her lap and Brent behind the both of them and the other nigga next to Milan. I looked at it until I couldn't anymore, I threw my phone across the room and it cracked but I don't give a fuck.
I went to shower and made sure the water was steaming hot to burn with music blasting, one of our songs, the one that played at the benefit and I closed my eyes as the water beat against my skin remembering that night and groaned at every memory, I could see her smile and feel her pulling at my braid and rubbing on my chest and arm when she didn't have her own way and her kiss.
My eyes shot open, I shut down and I knew it was over, I knew now as that hot as the water burned me and all I could see was her when I closed my eyes, It was done for. Running after made no sense when I was the one that left like a dummy. I got out and lotioned my skin, put my clothes on. I walked into my closet and dug through everything and I didn't know what the fuck I was looking for but I saw something in my safe.
I pulled it out and it was tickets from when we went to the cinema to see Mulan, a sweater and a letter. I held the sweater up to my face and it smelled just like her, I shoved everything back into the safe and locked it. I had to accept the facts dawg and the facts was that I fucked up and there was no coming back. I made up my mind to let go that night, just let go and move on.
Milan-
Christian came over to Brent's place and they knew each other, we played games, ate and John came a little while after along with Jorja. I had mad fun with them and it helped with getting my mind off of Pop and Chris. I smiled at them as they played twister and I sat watching and sipping on the wine Amber gave me.
I lost early on and I just sat watching them play, it was dark out and Christian promised to take me home but he was now determined to win the game.
"Aye you niggas ain't getting the victory, I am" he screamed and I laughed at him, I let them play and sang along to music and ate until I had to go, Brent walked us to the car and we left.
"I dint know you know Chris, you got a fuckin picture of yourself at his apartment too" he said and I laughed at his comment.
"We're best friends"
"But that photo looked like wedding photos" I rolled my eyes and shoved him lightly.
"Whatever Christian,"
Once I got back to the hotel I went up to my room and went straight to bed but I couldn't stop thinking about Brent and Bashar. He told me not to worry about Aaliyah, was he fuckin with that bitch all along? Just used that lame-ass excuse to get rid of me? I couldn't sleep anymore, I stayed up thinking about their lil relationship like what the fuck nigga? He's a bum for that and I don't give a fuck anymore. I just hope he's happy with her cause maybe she had something that I didn't have.
I went to sleep with him stuck on my mind and accepting the fact that I had to sacrifice my wants which was Brent and I and my needs which were friendship, I couldn't do that to him or Amber.
The next day Christian and I went around running errands and shit, I tagged along because I had nothing better to do and it was fun as fuck, we were cracking jokes, meeting his friends and just going all over all day and we went to this amazing bakery and restaurant to end the day.
I made snaps all day of our adventure and posted them all to my Instagram story,
Amberolivier- you didn't even invite me, I HATE YOU Milan, Jk I loe you"
BrentFaiyaz- that bakery is bomb no cap. Get me a chocolate eclaire or sum.
Aaliyah2real- moved on that fast from pop? no wonder he don't give a fuck bout you anymore shawty.
I stared at the message, getting mad as fuck, who the fuck she think she is? I got heated as fuck and opened her chat.
Me- Bitch mind the business that fuckin pays you and stop playing with me or else when I touch down again it's up no kizzy, watch ya mouth respectfully.
I sent and stared at her message, he was over me and I had to accept that, he was done and I wasn't sure how to react, I closed my phone and it buzzed again.
Aaliyah2real- we can fight all you want but you know I got pop now and that's all that matters bitch, I got him now shawty.
I didn't care anymore, he was done and so was I.
