Save me 💞

Chapter 7

I woke up in the morning to my alarm.
Ugh I don't want to get up, I thought.
After hitting snooze multiple times I finally convinced myself to get up and brush my teeth. I was a lot less nervous for school today. Still nervous, but at least I knew a few people and probably had people to eat lunch with.

I was starting to be excited for school when the thoughts came to me. The thoughts. They come to me all the time. I can't avoid them. Thoughts like They don't even like you, they only want to sit with you because they pity you. Or your so weird. They were definitely judging you. What if Janice, Stacy, and Clare didn't even like me? What if they just asked me to eat with them because they feel bad for me? What if they hated me?
I tried to shake away the thoughts. Just breathe. There not real, just thoughts.
After I brushed my teeth and washed my face, I put on some Levi's and a sweater. Then I tied my boots and went down to eat breakfast.

"Good morning honey." My mom said to be while cooking.
"Mom!! Your out of bed! I'm so proud of you. And your cooking!" I told her with a smile.
"Yes, I have been trying my best to get better and start being your mother again."
"And she's doing great." My grandma said, walking in while stirring her coffee. 
"Now let's go honey I'll drive you to school." My grandma said.
"No mom. I can drive her." My mom said to my grandma.
"Are you sure sweetie? You can stay here if you want I have no problem taking her."
"No it's okay. I'm trying to start taking care of my child again." She told her.
"Okay, if you insist." My grandma said smiling.

We pulled up to the school. I had butterflies. I was still so nervous.
"Have a good day honey!" My mother told me.
"Thanks mom. I really appreciate you driving me here. I know it can be hard for you to get out of the house." I told her smiling.
"I know and I'm sorry. But please don't worry about me. You have many other things you should worry about that isn't me. Now go have a great day."
"Bye, love you." I said to her.
"Love you too."