Save me 💞

Chapter 6

I drove home with my grandma in her old, light blue Honda. We listened to all her old CD's from the 60's and sang our hearts out. I grew up listening to these songs with her. When I was young my brother and I would always blast theses CDs with my grandma. It was so much fun. I miss him so much.

My grandma turned down the music and looked over at me.
"So Alisa, how was your first day of school?" My grandma asks wearing her usual grin. That's on of my favorite things about her. She's such a positive person.
"Well other then being unconscious for an hour, it was actually pretty good." I say.
"Oh honey I'm so sorry that happened. I hope you feel better."
"It's okay grandma it wasn't your fault." I tell her.
"How did this happen? Who hurt you?!" My grandma said getting angry.
"Oh it's nothing it was an accident. Some boy just accidentally ran into me and I feel down the stairs." I say trying to clam her down. "Speaking of this boy, he asked me out. Well I think he did. He asked me if I wanted to get dinner with him." I was so excited. I've never had a boyfriend, never been asked out, never even kissed a boy. Well unless you count on preschool. Now I move and suddenly a super cute, nice guy asks me out on a date!

"What a great way to ask a girl out. After you nock them unconscious." Grandma says laughing. "But this is great! You'll finally be able to go out of your comfort zone and do something new!"
"Yeah I guess. But I'm super nervous. I've never even kissed anyone. And this is so scary. What if he goes on this date with me and realizes he hates me?" I said looking out the window anxiously.
"Honey, I know you don't like to here this, but if you want to experience things in life you have to take risks. And that includes things that scare you." My grandma gives the best advice. She's so adventurous and I aspire to be like her. If only I didn't care so much about what others thought of me and weren't so scared.
"I know grandma. I'll try to do more things that scare me. Thank you." I tell her.
"Your an amazing girl Alisa. Your a kind, smart, funny girl. I know losing your brother was hard. It was hard for all of us. And I know letting people in and being vulnerable can be hard. Then you have a chance of them judging you and getting hurt. But one day in life you'll realize that you'll never be happy if you live your life worry about others opinions."
My grandma told me with a kind smile.

She got me. She understands what I'm going through. She understands my anxiety and how losing my brother has impacted me. I wish my mom could help me though. She was always there, but she has her own issues. For years she has been having on and off depression. Because of this my brother and I didn't rely on her. We love her to death, but she couldn't be there for us. Our grandma was always that support.

We pulled up to my grandmas house and parked. Then we got out of the car and unlocked the house door and I went up to my room to do some of my homework.