My boss

Cheap Motels

                        *Greyson's point of view*

   I can't believe I just did that. I just let go of the best woman I could have ever possibly had. The one person that makes me happiest. The love of my life. When Alli started the baby conversation I knew what was coming. A few months ago I loved the idea of having kids especially with her but recently I just couldn't talk myself into it. I thought I could do it but kids just aren't for me. Yes I love children but I like not having my own. I can barely handle taking care of myself how am I supposed to be responsible for another human in this world? I know I hurt Alli but I did what I had to do. I did what I thought was best. Maybe we can be friends. But how can you be friends with someone you want to kiss every time you look at them.
    I sit in my car and just cry. I finally get my self together or as much as I can be and I drive to work. I finally get there and I head in. I start working and I don't ever see Alli come in. Curious I walk over to James to see if he's seen her this morning.
   "Hey James! By any chance have you seen Alli this morning?" I ask him trying to put on my best 'I've got it all together' look. I don't want anyone to know how much I'm falling apart inside.
   "No. Uh—I was assuming you knew. She called in sick. Is she alright?" He asks. Damn. I hope she's okay. Ugh. Of course she's not okay I just broke her heart into a million pieces.
   "Ah, okay. Thanks." I tell him.
   "What's up? You seem off today." Apparently I'm not as good as I thought at hiding my pain.
   "We uh—kinda broke up." I say with my head down staring at my shoes. James is pretty much the only person I can talk to about this.
   "What?! Why? What the hell happened? You two were all lovey dovey yesterday!" He asks clearly shocked. I can't blame him. If you told me last week that we would be broken up right now I would say you're crazy.
   "We had a talk about kids, I said I didn't want any but she does. I can't keep her from that. I love her too much to hold her back from what she really wants." I tell him trying to convince my self in the process.
   "Damn...okay. Are you okay?" James asks me. I hard when people ask that. That question alone almost breaks me. I hold in the tears because I hate letting anyone see me cry.
   "No. Of course I'm not okay. She means everything to me. She's the best thing that has ever walked into my life. But I've already been in one relationship in my life where I was resented for something we didn't agree on and I won't do that to her. No matter how much it hurts." I finish with a sad smile. I hold it together.
   "Well I hope you two can work something out because you'll still have to work together." He tells me.
   "Yeah I know. We'll figure it out." We talk for a few more minutes until he got a call from a co worker to help with an issue. We parted way and I went back to work.
   The day goes on and it's miserable. I keep looking around, glancing towards her desk hoping one of these times I'll look up and she will be sitting there smiling at me like she always does. But she won't be. At least not today.
   The day finally ends and I head to my car. I head to the cheap motel that I booked for a week or so until I can find an apartment. It isn't the cleanest place but it'll do for now.
   I walk into the room and it's dimly lit. There's a full size bed to the left, a tv and bookshelf on the right and the bathroom is just around the corner from the bedroom. I'm glad I brought my own bathroom stuff because the soap they have smells very funky. I'm glad I won't be staying here for too long hopefully.
I head to bed and I cry myself to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.