Mari (Soul Eater)

Part Thirty-Eight

A/N: I AM SO SORRY FOR THE FEELS THAT I HAVE INFLICTED ON YOU. I AM A TERRIBLE PERSON AND I SHOULD BE THROWN IN JAIL FOR ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS I HAVE DOME TO YOU, MY WONDERFUL FOLLOWERS, WHO HAVE DONE NOTHING TO HARM ME IN ANYWAY. SO THIS IS MY APOLOGY.

I'M SOOORRRRYYYYY!!! I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU AND WHAT I WILL DO TO YOUR FEELS!!!!

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Marie's funeral was dark and no one was speaking but the man saying a speech. Mari held Bella in her arms, the child quiet but with her eyes wide, starring out at the people all dressed in black.

"This is terrible..." Mari said, her head down, whispering softly to Bella. The baby looked at Mari, a question in her eyes. "This is reliving my mother's death all over again... the fake one." Mari said.

Stein was still in the hospital, with a coma. He hadn't woken up yet so Mari had been taking care of Bella, not setting her down even once. She hadn't been going to school and she didn't plan to go back to her classes. Kidd had talked to her about it and she had promised him that she would still work on becoming a death scythe, but she couldn't deal with anymore from the other students.

She started crying a little and her tears dripped onto Bella. She began to fuss and Mari moved her up and down a little. Kidd put a hand on Mari's shoulder and leaned in. "Are you okay?" he asked, his eyebrows scrunching together. She nodded and held Bella close to her chest. "Do you want me to take Bella, Mari?" Kidd said and Mari shook her head.

"It's okay." She said, her tears obvious. She moved her black hat down to cover her dark eyes. She held Bella close to her face. "It's alright, Bella. I'm here. It's okay." She held Bella with one arm and wiped her tears away with her other hand.

'Why is life so cruel?' she asked herself.

'Because, how could we know joy without pain?' a voice replied and Mari felt her heart break completely.

'What's a little more pain?' another voice said and she shoved them away.

Bella was quiet now, starring into Mari's black eyes with her bright blue ones. She was such a smart little girl, and Mari knew that she would be a powerful weapon or meister. Bella pulled on a strand of Mari's hair to get her attention and she smiled as Mari came out of her daze. She lightly kissed Bella's forehead, her tears falling.

The funeral ended quickly and Mari and her friends walked home in silence. Mari held Bella close to her and even when someone else asked if she needed a brake, Mari would shake her head no and continue walking.

She was tired by the time they all reached the Gallows Mansion. Mari walked in, keeping her head down. Bella was asleep and Mari knew that the only reason pain wasn't rushing over her was because of Bella. She would've been in the state of mind that would cause her to have to be lock away, if it hadn't been for the thought of Bella without anyone holding her. Her father was in a coma, and her mother was dead. She wiped away a tear.

They all sat in the living room, making the space feel too quiet and faded. Mari held Bella so she could put a hand to her face to wipe away the tears.

"I'm sorry..." Mari said and wiped her other cheek. "This is all my fault. If had just never come to the school then Marie would be alive and Stein wouldn't-"

Mari's head whipped to the side as Black Star slapped her. She held her cheek as Bella woke up, beginning to cry. Her face was hot and Kidd stood, his stance protective.

"Shut up, Mari." Black Star said. "Stop blaming yourself." He clenched his fists and looked at her with angry green eyes. "If you had never come to the DWMA, you would probably be dead. That thing that killed your dad probably would've killed you."