The loss of innocence...

Chapter 7: Unsure

I held my head up high as I walked into the school. I smiled and waved to a few of my old friends. I wasn't going to come today. But I figured why the hell not. We only have four days left.

Everyone was cutting class. I mean who the hell wants to watch movies all week? I'm weird I know. I looked up and saw Austin. Oh no I can't see him, not yet. I ducked behind a wall and watched as he walked by.

I kept my head down and just walked. Somehow I ended up in the library. I walked to the back corner and sat down against the book case. You know books are so much better than real life.

Before I started dating Austin I really loved to read. I couldn't help looking around at all the people, then down to my stomach.

I shook my head. I took out my phone and opened my wattpad. Maybe just a little escape. Unfortunately I was only three pages in when someone tapped my shoulder.

I looked up into Austin's beautiful blue eyes and I felt my heart breaking already. I smiled just a little and got up. "Can I talk to you?"

He smiles and takes my hand, leading me outside. I stayed quiet and followed him out into the court yard. I found it hard to look him in the eyes.

"Austin...I..."suddenly my mouth went dry. I had trouble finding the right words.

"Babe? What's wrong?" He looked worried. Making it much harder.

"Austin...your going off to college and so am I but not here." I didn't exactly lie I wasn't sure about college.

"What are you saying?" His face fell. I looked away.

"I think we should go our seperate ways. We have to break up. I got quiet and looked up at him. He just turned and walked away. I felt the tears burning my eyes again.

"I'm sorry....I love you" I whispered after he walked away. I grabbed my bag and stormed out. I need to think. I wasn't sure where I was going I just kept walking.

For the millionth time today my hand landed on my belly. I sighed. What am I going to do? I could never get an abortion.  This baby was made from hate, but they were still a part of me. I guess I have my answer then. I need to talk to my parents.

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My palms were sweaty as I wiped them on my jeans. I smiled and watched my parents as they talked. I really wasn't in the mood to eat.

"Mom...dad..."they both looked at me. "You know how Aubrey has been asking me to come and work for her?" Aubrey is my mom's sister. She is a designer.

"Yes baby. Change your mind?" My mom asked hopeful.  She has tried talking me into it a hundred times.

"I have actually. I wanna leave after tomorrow. I don't need to walk in graduation. They can send my diploma. Please." I smiled and held my breath, waiting for their answer.

"Are you sure? It's so far away." My father says unsure. I smiled and nodded.

"I really want this!" I practically screamed.

"OK baby" my mother actually looked proud. I screamed and jumped out of my chair. I was actually excited.

I ran upstairs. I have to pack. I was throwing clothes everywhere.  I got my phone and almost called Austin till this morning hit me like a slap to the face. I have no one. I looked down to my belly. Do I?