~Something different ~ runa x reader

Chapter twenty four 

TRIGGER WARNING
Depression
The next few chapters will be about the very touchy subject. I would not be writing about it if I had not experienced it in the past as that would be disrespectful. The way it plays out in this is not how it goes for everyone and if you ever need to talk me dms on insta are open ( t0xic.__edits) It will contain mentions of scars , if you struggle with things like this please be aware and im here to talk.

Try me ?! Try me -

I gritted my teeth together , I knew I couldn't tell her how I had been feeling. I guess it had never really gone away since the forced family with midari. I fiddled with my tongue piercing in my mouth , pushing it against the tooth of my mouth and back with a slight flicker of my toungue.

" y/n." I snapped out of it and glanced up at her. I couldn't tell her , she would tell Sayaka and that would make her worry. I looked back at my feet.

" if it's because you don't want anyone else to find out this is confidential. " I looked at her as she said those words. Confidential.

" ok.. in that case. " I thought for a moment. " ever since that gamble with midari , and before you say anything. It wasn't her fault , she didn't know. And honestly, she's a pretty decent person. " I smiled a bit. " but since then , and the flash backs about dad , it hasn't felt the game. Kind of empty I guess you could say. Like something was missing , and of course I know what that was...it'd my dad. And mother of course. We haven't heard from her in a while so now it's just me and sayaka. And sometimes I feel so empty I do crazy or irrational things. Like the second gamble with midari where I got shot..." I trailed off. Not daring to look at her. I knew I had over shared and i pulled my jumper sleeves down as far as they would go.

" y/n ...I-..." the president was lost for words. Not Many people could do that to her.

Her gaze flickered to my arms and back to my face . My heart sank , I understood what she was looking for. My eyes started to brim with warm tears.

"y/n- you-"

"No!" I stood up and stormed out.the tears that had been threatening me spilled and streamed down my face . i felt very uneasy and anxious. I ran down the corridor and turned a corner. At the other side of the hallway stood ririka talking to the pop star , yumemi i think . ririkas eyes fell on me and she just stared. I slowly backed away from them. This wasn't what i wanted i turned and turned heals and walked away , as calmly as i could ... which wasn't very.

I decided the only semi-safe place would be...class.

I cleaned myself up , plastered a fake smile on and walked into class. " sorry , student council stuff." i waved my hand dismissively and took my seat next to mary.

"y/n-" mary was just as shocked as everyone else i was there.

" yeah...gotta lay low for a tad aha..." i whispered to her unzipping my bag.