I'm married to a Mafia boss?

Chapter 44: Nation's first love

Bumaba na kami sa main hall at punong-puno ito ng mga tao, wearing their outfits. Tama mga si China, pili lang at richest of the richest lang. Yung ibang tao mga namumukaan ko sila from magazines. The amount of charisma in this room is suffocating and tense. He para bang lahat sila nagiingitan ina very high class way.

Nang nahalata na nila na nandito na si the one and only Giovanni nagbulungan na sila. Never ever make them see any sign of weakness, or else they will prey me and eat me alive.

"I don't understand the point of this." Bulong ko sa kanya because there is nothinh to do. Ano bang alam ko sa mga pinaguusapan nila? All they talk about are foreign things from me.

Iba talaga mundo nila.

May bumaba na kasunod namin, its China. Everyone turned around for her, kahit 'tong katabi ko. He looks like he's about to shout, She's mine so fuck off sa mga lalaking nakatingin sa kanya.

Tindig pa lang niya elegance na mararamdaman mo. She is the epitome of high class. She does look stunning.

She is like the white swan, everyone wants to be like her, wants to be her. Me? I'm the black swan, they may see me as lower than her, but above all else I am the special one that will bloom someday.

And I embrace that, at least hindi ako katulad nila. Wala akong interes sa mundo nang mayayaman. I want a simple life, masydo silang tense. They look like they don't have the life they want.

Wow, as if on cue, nagkaroon ng music sa paligid. Bumaba na siya, alone by herself. Nagpuntahan mga lalaki sa kanya at kita ko yung kamay nitong katabi ko.

Heck no, I don't want to associate with this. Pinakawalan ko yung braso niya and walked away from that. Never looked back kasi I don't care, kasi wala din sa gawi na yun yung hinahanap ko.

Ang sakit sakit na nang paa ko. Wala pang ilang minuto mukang puputok na yung hinliliit ko sa sakit.

Nasaan ba siya? Bakit wala pa siya?

"May hinahanap ka no?" Someone whispered on my ear. On guard hinila ko yung kwelyo nila, pero it is just Estavo.  "Chill."

"Wala 'no. Wala akong hinahanap."

Sige deny pa.

"Tsk, your eyes says otherwise. Boss ordered him to scout outside. Dick move right? Bihis na bihis pa man din yun. Pero he can't go againsy him."

"S-Sino ba yang tinutukoy mo ha? Wala nga ako hinahanap."

"Sure. Anyways, see you around kid."

Umalis na siya at hinila na yung asawa niya from the crowd.

Might as well eat. I grabbed a plate, ayaw ko nga pakita yun kay Estavo baka ano pa isipin nun kung lumabas ako agad.

Pinuno ko nang maraming pagkain yung plate ko nang appetizers. Mamaya pa kasi yung formal dinner. Kaya puro appetizers lang nandito.

Para akong batang nawawala sa ibang mundo. They are all scary. I looked around kung meron bang bakante na table na pwede ako makiupo. And there was, yun nga lang meron nang grupong nakupo. Pero wala nang ibang bakante. Might as well, lahat naman sila babae.

"Can I sit?"

Nagtinginan silang lahat sa akin. And I swear they are like goddesses. Parang katulong naman ako kung tumabi sa kanila, bad idea ata 'to.

"Sure, go ahead."

Umupo na ako dun at lahat sila nakatingin lang sa gitna as if observing.

"Why are you siting dear? Don't you have a date?"

"I do, my husband. But he looks like he is busy." Sabay tingin ko sa gawi niya na coincidentally dun din nakatingin yung mga babae.

"Welcome to the club."

"Huh?" I am so confused. Welcome to the club?

"We are the abandoned wives society." Sabi nung isa, nagtawana silang lahat at agreed to the term,

"I-I'm sorry? Abandoned wives? But you all look perfect!"

"My husband is over there." Sabay turo sa isang middle aged man sa gitna na matangkad. "See that idiot following the Nation's first love."

"Nation's first love?"

"China Uy. Almost all of them at one point of their lives hopelessly devoted themselves to her only to be rejected."

"Oh... sad. So, your husbands are basically on their own with other people there."

"Yes, shamelessly insulting us. I'm over it though. He can do whatever he wants as long as I have the black AMEX card."

"True" sagutan nila. Black Amex card? What is that?

I hate this world. I can't believe tadhana. Inupo talaga ako kasama yung babae na kaparehas ng sitwasyon ko.

"As long as mine does not bother me and my business, it's tolerable."

"My God, Margeaux. It is not worth the dick to stay with him. You can leave him if you want."

"Then, why don't you all leave yours." Mahina kong sabi sana sa sarili ko lanh, kaso napalakas na naman siguro yung thoughts ko.

"I can't leave my lifestyle and children. As you said, as long as he goes home I am okay."

Parang gusto kong kumuha ng popcorn, kasi parang napaka juicy ng mga teas nila. Tapos now that I think of it, mga namumukaan ko mga asawa nila, even them. Kasi lagi silang nasa front cover ng magazine.

"How about you darling what is your story? Plus I'm jealous that you can eat that much carbs. My doctor will yell at me."

At shutek, nakakahiya. Masyado ko naman ata pinapakita na nagpapakababoy ako dito.

"Arrange marriage. If you guys still care that your husbands come home, me? I don't. As long he doesn't interfere with my life, I don't care what he does everyday. He can play whenever and whoever."

"Damn, were you that hurt? I don't have that kind of privilege, I wish I have a choice too."

"Girls, you all have choices. I am just putting up with mine because I have to, but other than that. He gets nothing from me."

Naiisip ko na naman mga katarantaduhan ni Van sa akin napapa binge tuloy ako lalo nang kain. Ugh, nakakawalang gana yung mga visual images.

"Then you are the same as us. Darling, if you can't free yourself, what makes you different from us?"

"I can choose when to leave. I just don't want to yet."

Kasi kapag umalis ako, baka hindi ko na makita si Xandy. I don't want to risk it.

Tumayo ako ulit to get more food. Hindi naman sila mukang na-offend sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Feeling ko at this point they are kind of like me, manhid na sa mga ganung bagay.

I guess hindi lang pala ako naghihirap sa mundo na'to. Even beautiful women like them get cheated too.