yours truly ❞ jaeyong

Day 018

April 30, 2021

Dear Jaehyun,

I think I'm really stupid.

The boy looked up to him with his teary eyes, he cupped the man's cheeks and slowly leaned closer to give him a peck. "I love you." And that's the first time ever the boy said those words to someone except his parents.

He feels so great, he wanted to scream and shout to the world how happy he is right now. The man held his waist and pulled their bodies close together, "I love you too." Hearing those words was like a medicine that cured the boy's nonexistent wound.

Both of them forgot everyone's existence except each other's. That's what matters anyway- both of them, beside each other.

The boy was me and the man was you, three years ago.

I never thought it'll be this painful to write our own story, but you know why I chose our story to be my first novel? Cause out of all stories I've imagined, ours was the most beautiful.. and the realest.

Jaehyun, you don't have to worry about me. From this day onwards, I'll stop hoping you'll come back. I'll start accepting that you already left. Nevertheless, I feel like I'm imprisoned by our past. I can't ever let you go, it hurts so much.

But I don't have choice, do I?

I'll finish this novel, until then- I'll keep sending you letters. And maybe after that, I'll start letting you go.. I'll free myself from this broken memories of us.

Yours Truly,
Yong

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note: this is unedited. please expect typographical and grammatical errors. thank you.