yours truly ❞ jaeyong

Day 015

April 09, 2021

Dear Jaehyun,

Guess what?

I got accepted to a company and tomorrow's my first day! It's just a desk work so I'm quite happy, and my dad will finally stop bugging me about this kind of things.

Days are passing so fast, I hate the thought of growing up.. especially that you're not here. Growing up changes people. Who knows? I could've changed already without me realizing. You too..

Do you still look the same? That brown fluffy hair of yours, are they still brown? Your smile.. does your dimples still shows up? How about your eyes? Do they still shine? Wait. Do you still wear specs? Or you're already wearing contact lens?

I'm so curious.. but I can't do anything and just let my imaginations do the work. But physical appearance doesn't matter, right? You will always look beautiful in my eyes, the most handsome person I've ever met.

What I'm afraid of.. is your feelings. Do you still feel the same about me? Or you already moved on? Is someone else starting to make you happy? Makes you smile and makes you think that you just want to spend the rest of your life with them?

It hurts, just by thinking about that. I don't think if I can handle the pain if it's really true.

You don't have to worry about me though, I don't think I could even love someone the way I'm loving you right now.. stupid, I know.

Yours Truly,
Yong

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note: this is unedited. please expect typographical and grammatical errors. thank you.