yours truly ❞ jaeyong

Day 026

June 25, 2021

Dear Jaehyun,

Hi.

"He likes you, it was obvious! Why do you still have to entertain him?!" The man, with his furrowed eyebrows, tried his best not to raise his voice. He's obviously mad though.

The boy crossed his arms and avoided the man's gaze, "I didn't entertain him! He's just a friend, and he knows I have a boyfriend." He argued back.

This is actually nonsense, fighting cause of jealousy. It was the first time the boy fought back instead of saying sorry.

The man massaged his temples, "Just a friend? Fuck that term!" He faced his back on his boyfriend, controlling his anger.

The boy can't help but curse too, he thinks that he's boyfriend is overthinking too much. "Why can't you trust me, Jae? I love you and you should know that I'll never cheat on you." He stated.

The man faced him again as he sighed harshly, "I trust you, but I don't trust that fucker. I was once your friend too, Yong! I know he can get you the way I did, and I'm too scared to lose you!"

It's like a slap to the boy, he felt his chest tightened when he heard how hurt his boyfriend is. He bit his lower lip as he tried to hold him, "J-jae.. I'm sorry.."

The man pulled him for a tight hug, the boy can't help himself but cry. "I didn't mean t-to.. make y-you feel this w-way." He sobs while the man caressed his nape.

"I'm sorry too, I didn't mean to be mad. I'm just.. scared. I don't think I could ever live without you."

I couldn't write a letter for you the past two weeks, I was sick. No worries, Ten and Sicheng took turns in taking care of me. And now I'm back with a new one.

I don't have any plan on writing this for you, though I included this on my novel. It was one of the painful yet beautiful memories we have.

I swear to God that day, that I will try my best to not hurt you again. I was so sure you'll do the same, since you keep assuring me and rarely makes me overthink. I should've done the same to you.

I wanted to make it up to you, but I don't think I'll have a chance anymore. Do I?

I'm just praying that the next person you'll love.. will treat you better than I did. And, love you better than I could.

Yours Truly,
Yong

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a/n: this is unedited. please expect typographical and grammatical errors. thank you.