You put me on a pedestal and tell me I'm the best
Raise me up into the sky until I'm short of breath (yeah)
Fill me up with confidence, I say what's in my chest
Spill my words and tear me down until there's nothing left
Rearrange the pieces just to fit me with the rest, yeah
But what if I, what if I trip?
What if I, what if I fall?
Then am I the monster?
Just let me know
And what if, what if I sin?
And what if I, what if i break? Yeah
Then am I the monster? Yeah
Just let me know, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
~MONSTERS by Shawn Mendes and Justin Bieber~
M A I S A R A H
NEW YORK CITY, USA
"Mama ina wuni." I greeted my mum and sat Indian style on my bed while Intisaar rummaged through my walk in closet.
"Lafiyah Sarah, ya kuke?"
"Alhamdulillah, how is everyone?" I asked.
"Everyone is doing fine Alhamdulillah. Ya karatu kuma?"
"Toh Alhamdulillah." I replied and she hummed a response.
"Toh mah labari?" She asked. "Babu fah."
"When are you coming back?" I sighed. "Mama you know I don't plan on coming back anytime soon." I answered.
"Toh you plan on staying there for the whole two years ne. Won't you come back home even for Eid or azumi."
"Mama before you know it, I will be back." I assured her but she did not like that. "Why do you have to be so stubborn ne Sarah?"
"Mama what did I do now. I thought we are over that conversation of whether am coming back or not." She hissed.
"Am tired of talking to you mah, sai anjima." She cut the call and I sighed.
"What's wrong?" Intisaar asked.
"It's mama." I replied and she raised an eyebrow. "What happened to mama?"
"She wants me to go back to Nigeria." I replied. "What's there toh, I thought you plan on going there for holiday?" I shook my head.
"I said I wasn't going back till am done." She looked shocked and I shrugged.
"Ni dai, I will be going back home. I can't handle staying here for a good two years." I laughed.
"Koh dai it's because you don't want to see Abdul?" I rolled my eyes. "Obviously." I grumbled.
"You have issues fah Maisarah." She said with a straight face. "Ahhh, what did I do now?" I asked.
"Can you just tell me what your problem is with this poor guy?" I sighed.
"I have no problem with him Intisaar." I said. "Okay so why don't you want to see him." I shrugged.
"I am simply not ready." She rolled her eyes and went back to the closet not before yelling a 'you are a fool'
My phone rang and I checked the caller ID and it's Manal. "Whats up!" I said.
"Come pick us." She yelled and I scrunched up my face. "You and who and where am I picking you up from?" I asked.
"Don't ask too much questions, just come to the airport." She ended the call before I could say anything else.
