Perfect

Chapter 7

Sitting in Maths I start to anticipate the weekend ahead of me. It's easter weekend meaning no school on Friday or Monday, so its an extra long one. I am nervous and anxious the same time but I'm looking forward to it, I think. It has been on my mind 24/7 since I told Arthur and it's all we have spoken about.

I am 16 so I'm legal. Me and Arthur are in the older part of the year both celebrating our birthday in September. My birthday is the 4th and his the 8th so we always do something to celebrate together, we are hoping this year to go away for the weekend.

I can't believe at the end of May I am leaving school, finally! I have a few exams to take up until the summer but no more lessons.  This is going to be the best year ever. I am heading off to college to study Health & Social care in September, I have a placement at a local social services and it's going to be my first proper job. I help sometimes at the bakery but it's not a proper job.  I think I'm going to be filing away paperwork and making the tea but we all have to start somewhere.

I'm still not  entirely sure what I want to do with my life, I had thought at one point I wanted to work in social services but I'm still not set on the idea.

Arthur is going to the same college but doing mechanics. He is very into cars and often helps his Dad fix and do up cars at the weekend. He has a real passion for it and he will describe every little thing he is doing to the car, I always politely nodded along not really having a clue what he was talking about. Some of the old bangers end up looking brand new then they would sell them on.

I am overly excited about going to the same college as Arthur, we have planned to get the train there together. There's a bus from our village that takes you into town and then the train goes from there. We are hoping our days will be pretty similar but we will wait and see.

All of my friendship group are going to the same college at us but studying different things, so I don't think I will see them. All the girls are studying beauty and the boys mechanics. I am unsure if they will be in the same class as Arthur but I hope and pray they are not. He would hate to have them on his back all the time.

I am hoping once I get to collage I can remove myself from that group and cut Elsie out, that's the plan. She will make new friends in her class and I hope I do too. I can't wait to have a normal friend, someone who actually supports my choices in life and offers the best advice. I am hoping to find that a college, a best friend, a real best friend.

The week flies by and before I know it Thursday lunch break is here. It's getting so close, such a big moment in my life. Everyone's going off to their normal weekends, partying, drugs and alcohol but my weekend is life changing.

It's beautiful really how two people connect on such a level they want to give themselves to each other. I sometimes think I'm an 50 year old stuck in a 16 year olds body. The deep thoughts I have about sex, I'm a hopeless romantic really.

"So Lucy what you doing at the weekend?" Elsie asks.

I should tell her, she is supposed to be my best friend and aren't best friends supposed to tell each other everything? Perhaps she could give me some tips, after all she is experienced in that department so it could actually be of some use to me.

I look directly at Elsie and quietly say "If I tell you something you can't tell anyone, promise"

She looks worried "Cross my heart"

"Me and Arthur are, you know having s.e.x this weekend"

Elsie looks horrified her eyes widen at me like she has seen a ghost, it's not the look I was expecting. I thought she would be proud that little miss virgin was about to pop her cherry or whatever they called it. She doesn't I'm not sure why, Perhaps she just taken back.

Clearing her throat she says "You, Virgin Mary are going to be fucking Arthur all weekend"

'Fucking' oh no I now feel disgusting, I don't want to be spoken about like that. Fucking  it sounds like something two people do drunkly at the weekend and that wasn't what this is. This is two soulmates making love to each other, connecting with one another.

"No it's not like that Elsie"

"Do you want tips because you have no clue do you, that's why you have told me. Right wel..."

Promptly interrupting her I say "No thanks I do not want tips"

I definitely don't want any tips now, I thought she would be supportive but she hasn't been. I kind of thought she would be proud that I will be a woman now. It feels a bit sleazy now, I'm saddened she has made it like that.

"Well I can't wait to hear about this next week" Elsie walks off laughing before shouting across the road,

"Bye virgin, ha can't say that next week can I"

I'm second guessing myself, do I need to or even want to do this? Am I making the right decision? I know to many girls it wouldn't be a big deal but I really did want it to be like the movies. You know how it's just so magical and sparks fly. I know the movies aren't real but I have nothing to compare it to so that was what I am imagining and I hope it's exactly like that, unforgettably,
magical.